Falling apart

Heart of glass, mind of stone

[kara's pov]

Kara I can't
I'm a luthor
You're a super

I can't get this out of my head, since when is her last name a problem? I fly over national city for at least two hours now trying to get a fresh mind but the truth is I'll never get over this. Alex tried to call me a few times and she's gonna be mad at me for ignoring them but I can't help it anymore, the woman I love can't be with me because of her damn last name
„I only want you, forever" At this point I'm talking to myself but it doesn't matter anymore, she doesn't want me, I can't have her.
I'm a failure.
I fly straight up, taking a moment to think about everything I done wrong to deserve this and then I just let myself fall down. I can see everything, every building filled with life, beautiful national city.

The wind feels like it's trying to push me up but my thoughts are pulling me down so I just wait for the pain. Theres no way back.' I Crash land in a field, leaving a massive hole in it.
I let the pain take over my body, not trying to escape it.

I'm never gonna be enough
Nobody needs me
I deserve this pain

Why can't she be mine? I don't care about her crazy mother, I want her, I need her. How could I save others when I'm not even able to save myself? Tears now rushing down my face, I just can't hold it back. Lena I need you

[flashback from the morning]
Kara wakes up next to Lena, holding her close while lena is smiling in her sleep. Kara gets up to make Lena some pancakes for breakfast, but looks like Lena already did it „lena you are definitely not asleep" kara giggles walking back in the bedroom but lena wasn't in the bed anymore, she jumps on Kara's back, scaring her so she flys like one metre in the air with lena on her back. Lena starts laughing „nah I guess I'm not" Kara Cant help but laugh at Lena's action

„you're crazy" kara giggles flying back down so she could face lena „oh rao" she looks at lena, losing herself in these green eyes looking at Kara full of love. Lena smiles „anything happened?" kara blushes, her face got red really fast and ofc lena did see that which caused Lena's to do the same „n-no you're just so beautiful, Lena" kara says shyly looking down

Lena plays with her hair „honest to god, that's what I think everytime I see you" kara releases a weak smile but that didn't hold on long because of the sadness in Lena's eyes. „wanna eat now? I'm so so so hungry!" kara says trying to break the silence between them „sure" lena smiles although Kara sees its fake.

„This looks so good, thank you" kara says smiling, pointing at all the food lena made for her „anything for you" lena days before getting a message on her phone, „I'm sorry, I have to go...see you later?" she says sadly „Of course" Kara says faking a smile,watching lena leave
„lena? Be careful whatever you do"

Kara didn't eat any of the food after lena left, she just jumped out of the window to have a flight over the city
[flashback end]

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Hi!
I'm sorry this chapter took that long to publish but here it is😇
It's still not that good but I'm trying my best😇❤️ see ya in the next chapter!