To Show You I'll Stay

because I love you.

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because I love you,

I would do anything for you.

because I love you,

I'd stay with you.

because I love you,

I'd die for you.

I love all the qualities about you, darlin'.

you're beautiful beyond the surface,
you're perfect from the core out.

you've got me melting until my heart and soul are just the debris of a house once standing, now just the beaming and structure,
just to pick me all up again and fix me.

I'm more addicted to you than an a addict is a drug, than a skimpy tree is a raging inferno of a fire.

you, my love, are just what I needed.
cause at one point I saw no light at the end of the tunnel.

I saw no start of good.

I saw no purpose.

I saw no reason to continue into a life that once seemed worth it but now seemed to be tainted in melancholy and emptiness.

I saw no point.

I didn't want to keep crawling, scraping my knees, through that tunnel.

but you came and picked me up, you put that light at the end of my tunnel.

you showed me that I didn't have to fight every fight alone, that I wasn't some object used just to be thrown aside after use like some smoked cigarette.

you gave me purpose.

you gave me something worth living for.

you were that something, and I never want to let go.

I was waiting.

I was waiting for things to pick up pace, for everything to be okay again.

but it never did get better, I was just deteriorating in my own pool of sorrow.

I picked up on self-destructive habits that were once just bumps in the road, that turned into routines, which developed into addictions and then problems.

I'm still struggling.

I'm still learning to love myself.

I'm still trying to accept myself and drop those bad habits,

and eventually I will, and it'll be with you and for you.

I won't stay up dusk till dawn making myself miserable.

I won't overwork myself.

I won't pick up on bad habits.

I won't bottle everything up.

I won't use pills to force myself to sleep when my anxiety gets the best of me.

I won't hurt myself.

I won't be too hard on myself.

I won't ever stop loving you.

I love you so much, and I'd have to be absolutely dillisional to ever even have the thought of leaving you.

because I love you. ~

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a/n:

hope that wasn't too horrendous, and if it was I'm sorry. I'm tired, it's late, and I'm horrible at poetry, so the fact that I even had the audacity to create a poem book about love and feelings is beyond me.

love you guys, thanks for the recent love and support.~

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