Harry's POV
I took a deep breath and swallowed the lump forming in my throat, and with a shaky and sweaty hand I knocked on her wooden door.
Once I knocked for about three times I placed my hand inside the pocket of my jeans. Then, I heard some shuffling and footsteps coming towards the door.
I heard the sound of a click and the door opened to reveal Taylor.
She furrowed her brows once she saw me and I could see the slight frown forming on her red lips. Her black sweater covering her pale skin and her usually joyful blue eyes seems a bit dull. And I'm guessing she knows.
"What do you want?" She asked, rather harshly and cold. By the tone that she used, it's obvious that she knows.
"T-Taylor, I'm pretty sure that you know what happened last night." I said nervously, I want to apologize to her and tell her that I'm sorry for everything. I want to tell her that she can't leave me, I wanted to tell her all these things but somehow I couldn't even speak properly.
"If you're here to talk about last night, then you can leave. You can go back to Kendall and do your business." She said sternly and she almost closed the door but I blocked it with my foot.
"Please, Taylor. Let me explain." I pleaded and her cold gaze landed on me.
"What do you have to explain Harry? I saw it with my own two eyes, that you kissed her back." She said with pain in her voice and her voice almost cracked at the end of her sentence.
"I was drunk, I was out of my mind. I didn't know what I was doing. Taylor, I didn't mean it. Please Taylor, don't end this." I said, begging for her forgiveness.
"Harry, you know she has a reputation. You know what she does to other men in the campus, maybe you could've kept your distance. Maybe you should've been sober. Or maybe you should've tried Harry. You could've made an effort to keep her away. But you didn't, you let her take over you. If you made an effort, maybe none of this wouldn't happen. If only you just tried, Harry." She said and she was already in the brink of tears.
And I hate to admit it, but she's right. If I tried to keep my distance away from her, or if I tried to be sober that night none of this would've happened.
"When we're together, you don't make an effort to show how much you love me like you said. And now, you're saying you're sorry? And you're asking me not to end this? You're asking me to stay with you? What's the point if I stay with you when you don't even make an effort to our relationship? And Harry, you assured me. You said I shouldn't worry about Kendall. You said it was fine, but clearly it's not." She explained with such emotion in her voice.
She's right, what's the point if she stays with me, if I don't put effort to show her how much I love her? Have I been that selfish? One thing I need to do for sure, is change. I need to change for the better. I need to change for us, for Taylor.
"I promise, I'll change. I'll put effort to our relationship this time. I'll stay away from other girls. I'll change for us, just please don't end this." I said and I really meant it.
She let out a sarcastic laugh and a scoff. I looked at her confusedly.
"Promise? You promised me that you wouldn't hurt me. You promised that you'll change. What's the difference from your promise back then and now? And look what happened to us now, you promised you'll change but what happened now? You're still that arrogant Harry." She said with the look of disgust on her face. And I've got to admit, that hurts. A lot.
"You know what, I really can't believe that I expected you to change. I can't believe that I counted too much on your promises. And I can't believe that I thought you could keep them. I trusted you too much Harry. Sorry if I trusted you too much, sorry if I thought you could keep your promises and sorry if I loved you too much." She said and a tear escaped from her eye and rolled down on her cheek. I wish I could wipe her tear away and make the pain go away. But that wasn't my place anymore, and I couldn't just wipe her pain away if I was the one who caused it.
"Harry, you still have one promise. And please, just please, do it." She said, trying to gasp for air as more tears keep streaming down on her cheeks. But she quickly wiped them away.
"What is it? I'll do anything." I said, it was the least I could do for all my broken promises.
"Remember when you said if you hurt me or broke my heart, you'll let me go? Well, Harry I can't tell you how much it hurts for me to see you kissing another girl, and I can't tell you how much your promises broke my heart. So, Harry do a favor for me, won't you? Can you please just let me go? I just can't stand all the pain coming all at once." She said, much softer this time.
Me? Let her go? I'm afraid I have to break another promise.
Not in my right mind would I let her go. I may have broken promises and hurt her, but I may sound stupid but I'm still head over heels for her and I wouldn't just give up without a fight.
"I'm–I'm sorry Taylor, but I can't keep that promise. I can't let you go." I admitted.
"Why? Why can't you do that promise?" She asked, her voice was almost in a whisper.
"It's because, I'm still head over heels with you Taylor. I still love you, no matter what you do or what happens I can't find myself falling out of love for you. I'll prove it to you this time, I'll show you how much I love you."
She heaved a sigh and closed her eyes for a second and opened them again in a second.
"Harry, you don't deserve this. You can find any other girl who can love you. But I just can't anymore." She finally said and softly closing the door at my face.
Once she closed the door, I started walking away from her dorm with my hands in my pockets of my jeans and kept my head low.
I'm sticking to what I said earlier, no matter what she says or do I can't find myself falling out of love for her. I don't know what's going on with me, but she has something that other girls doesn't have. And that's
what makes her special and what made me fall for her in the first place.
I won't stop trying, and this time I'll make sure to change and keep my promises if I want to get Taylor back. I'll show her how much I truly love her. And I'll show her that I'm putting an effort to get her back.
I won't stop trying, not now or ever..
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