|| IS IT LOVE ||

I miss you

"Ggugie...my son..."

"Why are you here mom?" He asked stubbornly, eyes not meeting hers and jaw clenching frequently.

"Oh I see, my little Kook's really mad at me." She said but her tears refused to stay back in its place as it flow one after another. Jungkook eyes were fixated to the ground to notice anything.

"Why? I don't have any rights to-?

"You have. You have every right my son." She said smiling through the tears with a faint voice.

I saw how Jungkook squeezed his lashes together in a way which was reflecting his pain behind it, the pain which he must've held back from years. And just by staring at his fragile figure I knew I have to do something.

"I-I'm sorry my son...I am really sorry to you. That was my mistake...and...I can explain--" She sobbed even more while saying these words but Jungkook just raised his hands in a way to interrupt her.

"You can't, you can't explain anything and what will you explain exactly when you were completely aware of your decisions back then..."

And then I saw something which I wish I shouldn't have because I can't see him in that state. A tear escaping his beautiful pitch black orbs, which demanded nothing except one thing, care. He was mad, he was utterly in pain, and that he needs someone to caress him.

And how would I explain it, that feeling, to see someone in such a helpless state, how it breaks your heart into millions of pieces. I would even get rejected by this idiot a thousand times but no, I don't think I can see him in such a state anymore.

And with that I glanced at the equally devastated lady at my right and flashed her a little reassuring smile before moving towards the boy.

I looked at him for the last time before dragging him out of the room. I could hear his soft whimpering sounds as if he wanted to say something.

I gently drag him out of the room and made him to face me. "Hey, look at me Kook. I know I'm no one to say these things to you but right now it's needed, she needs it and you too."

I saw how his doe eyes glistened with the warm tears he had held back. A sad sigh left his lips when he said these, "You know what she did rig-"

"I know" I said moving closer to him, taking his beautiful yet puffy cheeks in my palms, "I know everything. She told me, even the fact that she didn't came on your debut." He looked at me with innocent questionable eyes and hands which gently squeezed my arms reflecting his pain.

"But you know what Kook, people aren't perfect, they make mistakes and they suffer. She did too and now she is suffering without you." My thumb caressed his upper cheeks which were tear stained.

"And guess what if I was in her position at the very time, I would've done it too, would've stopped you from taking this career and forced you to do the same jobs that people would appreciate." I paused a little  and he nodded very slightly yet showing that he was understanding my words.

"Not because she hated you at that time or she didn't wanted you to become an idol but the society, the situations made her do so. She knew if you would fail there's no turning back."

I told him each and every fact, the reality which he didn't wanted to face.
There was a moment of silence between us. He stared and I did too. His cry has turned into tiny sniffles.

"She is your mother Kook. A mother that never expects anything from you except your love and care for her."
I smiled at him as these words left my lips.

"Sorry...I didn't wanted to....I love her." He said as if he would burst into tears again.

"Okay, okay now go and give her a big hug with this muscular arms and tell her how much you missed her." I couldn't help but nudge his arms a bit to show my affection.

He smiled through his sniffles and looked at me.
"What? Now go..."
I said a bit flustered the way his smile turned into a smirk. This asshole. He wasn't moving instead he looked at me and his smile faded a little. I waited for him to say something but he just kept staring.

His burning stare made me gulp. Stop staring or I'll lose it too. As much as I tried to look away, I found myself falling deeper into those chocolaty brown shade of his eyes. And then he suddenly spoke.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have left you with Jimin hyung alone..."

My eyes widened a bit at that. Why is he being sorry? Does he know anything about my feelings? No it can't be. It can't be at all, I tried to erase those thoughts and started acting cool.

"Ya... dork, from when did this dickhead started apologising."
I smacked his shoulder while pretending to laugh hard but nervously but he didn't. He kept staring back and I gulped as if trying to memorise every single feature on my face.

Then he moved closer and closer until it was about a small space left between us, our breaths mingled and I found myself squeezing my eyes shut. I was trembling a bit, mind clouded with anxiety.

"Open them" he suddenly spoke and my eyes fluttered open as I looked at him.

He then held my palms in his and gently connected our forehead. His breathing was somehow uneven which was not helping but aroused some unwanted desire within me.

As he leaned in a bit, "Hey..what you doin...jungkook...stop-"

"I miss you."

Okay, did I hear it wrong? He missed me. My heart was beating unnaturaly and my stomach did a flip which was certainly due to a foreign feeling which I had never felt before.

I wanted to know why he said this? Why all of a sudden? Did he came to know about something? He's never this sweet, so why?

There were so many questions invading my mind but aghhhhh...this damn heart, won't stop beating at all.

Our heads were against each other and all I could say was, "You idiot, st- stop joking, I know you don't mean it-"
And then something happened which definitely shouldn't have.

He placed his soft thin lips against my cheeks, pecking them gently before running inside the room.

Wait...what just..happened?