I saw a dim light at the tunnel end afar
I was on fire, my skin felt melted by hot tar.
I was lost in a world of all my troubled thoughts
Spinning and spinning, my stomach turned to knots
I gave up on searching, I gave up on life
The only thing that looked at all appealing was the side of a knife.
But I promised to be good, never to harm
But that knife in my hand just felt so warm.
The smile on my face was false as could be
If anyone really cared, they definitely could see.
But no one ever did, I knew this to be true
They could never understand my depth of love for you.
Time came and time went, passing oh so fast
Now time is gone and just a thing of the past.
There was supposed to be a future, a time for us
Now the only future I see is me in front of a bus.
Nothing can change my mind from the way it is
Nothing at all, not even your kiss.
It'd hurt too much to remember the pain
I can't stand feeling the way I have again and again.
I told you I was afraid, I knew you'd make me hurt
All I have left of you is your games and your sweatshirt.
I have to give those back, and then I'll have nothing
I will have lost possessions, I will have lost trusting.
I'm sorry, but you will never fully realize this feeling
Having everything taken from you when you were still healing.
I thought I could trust you, I thought that you cared
But I guess you didn't, the feelings weren't shared.
Unfortunately for me, I am stuck with the feeling of love
You say you still care for me, that's something I'm not sure of.
I will wait around for the truth to come out
Until then, I will cry and I will pout.
I do love you, and I always will
That is my burden I carry, a hole you can't fill.
The smile on my face will remain false
I'll do my dance with depression, this time it's a waltz.
