To Show You I'll Stay

scared.

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I was scared, I was so scared.

I was scared that I wouldn't be enough for you.

I was petrified that you'd stop loving me out of nowhere one day.

I was afraid that I wouldn't be what you needed.

I was horrified that I'd get attached to you just to lose you.

I'm still scared, cause I want to be everything I can possibly be for you.

I'm still scared of losing you unexpectedly.

But you've got to understand that despite the circumstances and despite the feelings of anxiety every now and then,

I love you much as to continue with you.

I wish we were closer,

And I wish I didn't have to stress about my parents not accepting me,

I wish I didn't have to stress about my parents keeping us from talking if they don't accept me loving you.

That's what I'm so afraid of,

I can't risk losing you, baby.

I can't risk that.

But I want to love you without there being a constant weight on my chest from keeping us a secret,

I'm just so scared.

I want to be with you till the end of time,

I want to grow old with you and construct a family with you, darling.

I love you so much, and I want nothing more than for everything to work out.

I want nothing more than to hold you in my arms and be fully there with you.

I just want you.

And I'm so willing to fight whatever fight necessary to be with you.

fully with you.~

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a/n:

Not even sure if this is poetry anymore, but whatever it is I hope you like it!

New "poems" coming soon, but I swear to god these final exams are gonna be the literal end of me.

Thank you guys for the recent support.
💞

Word count: 312 words.
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