“Masakit diba? Ganyan, ganyan yung pakiramdam ng ginawa mo sakin Elmo. Mahirap mag effort sa taong walang pakialam diba? Masakit yung ikaw nahihirapan, siya nagpapakasaya.” Those words keep on echoing in my ears.
I tapped my forehead with slight force thrice. I was really stupid when I hurt her before. So Stupid. I should’ve proved my love for her even before. No matter how complicated it is to love her coz she’s too far away. Sana hindi ako natakot noon. Ako tuloy yung nahihirapan ngayon. Pero hindi, I shouldn’t give up no matter how stone hearted she is right now. I’m making sure she’ll come back to me, but I need to be quick. Less than a month I’ll be going back London. The fact the iniisip ko na babalik pa ako doon, I can’t imagine myself again being away from her. Wala naman talaga sa plano ko toh e, I’m just here for a one month vacation. Pero nung makita ko siya at makasama, all the feelings i kept before came back instantly. She’s making me crazy again. Gusto ko na lang dito tumira sa Pinas para di na ko malayo sa kanya coz in the first place ayoko naman talaga tumira sa London, napilitan lang ako dahil kila Mom. Mahirap makibagay sa mga taong di mo naman kalahi. Dagdag mo pa yung mga bagay na importante na naiwan ko dito, the culture, the food, my friends, my relatives and a part of my heart — I think si Julie yun. Ayoko na talaga bumalik dun, lalo na ngayon nakasama ko na ulit siya, I don’t want to lose her again. I need to fix things for us. My only hope to be with her is to get her back, make her my wife. Yun naman talaga yung plano namin noon pa, which I stupidly broke. I really hope she still love me, gusto ko pang tupadin yung mga plano namin noon na sinira ko.
I also need to explain everything to her, kung bakit di ko siya sineryoso noon. Pero hindi ko maintindihan sarili ko everytime na icoconfront niya ko, hindi na ako makapagexplain ng maayos. I’m not really good when it comes to that. Nauunahan ako ng guilt, kaya lagi na lang ako umiiwas. I know I have to be man enough to explain things to her. For now, all I want to do is to spend time with her. Bahala na. I hope everything will turn out right.
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I can see now the private island resort na nirefer ng friend ko. Wow, this is paradise. I’m sure magugustuhan dito ni ryza, I know mahilig siya sa beach and water activities unlike me, hindi man lang marunong lumangoy.
“Sir, excuse po. Kelangan na po natin lumipat sa mas maliit na bangka para makalapit dun sa island. So tara na po”. The crew uttered to me.
“Ok, I’ll just get my girl.” I motioned myself where ryza is right now.
I sighed heavily bago ko lumapit kay ryza. Without saying anything I held her hand, nagulat pa siya sa ginawa ko. Pagod na rin siguro siya makipagtalo kaya sumunod na lang siya. Inalalayan kame para lumipat sa bangka.
“Sir, ok lang po ba na maglakad na kayo mula dito, sobrang low tide po kasi ngayon kaya pati tong bangka sasadsad pag ipinilit natin makalapit sa dalampasigan. Isusunod na lang po naming yung mga gamit niyo ni Ma’am.” Sabi nung crew. I think were five meters away na lang naman sa shore, kaya ok lang.
“Yeah, sure.” I answered. Nauna na ko bumaba sa bangka. Hanggang tuhod na lang naman yung tubig. Naalala ko si ryza may sugat nga pala sa paa. Siguradong mahapdi yun pag nabasa ng tubig alat.
“ryza, come on, ride on my back.”
“Huh? Hindi na, kaya ko naman maglakad.”
“Wag na matigas ulo, bago lang yang sugat mo sa paa sige ka, tubig alat pa naman tong lalakaran mo.” She had no choice. Pumasan na siya saken and hugged me from my back.
As we walk nearer to the shore, I could smell the fresh breeze of air, the wave calmly moving with my every step, the heat of her body touching mine and the rhythm of her heart beating at the moment. She held me tighter, a smile automatically drew on my face, I know and I feel that her heart still beats for me. I never knew that this is what it feels like to be held by the one you love. It feels so right, nothing would get any better than this.
“Ryza, nasasakal ako, wag masyado mahigpit, baka hindi na kita ibaba dyan.” I teased her again.
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“Aww Ryza, I’m just kidding!” Ako. Sinabunutan niya ko. Brutal talaga nitong babaeng toh.
“Kidding, kidding? Gusto mo ubusin ko yang buhok mo?! Ibaba mo na nga ako.” Busangot nanaman siya.
“Hi Ma’am Ryza and Sir Andrew! Welcome to Maricaban Resort!”The Lady Crew greeted us with a smile. She was wearing a mini skirt, together with two more girls. Wow, ok pala dito, chicks mga crew nila. Tinanggal ko yung Raybans ko, looking at these girls from head to toe.
“Hello girls! Thank you!” Sabay kindat ko.
“Awwww!” Siniko ako ni Ryza sa sikmura, ang sakit nun ah, nakakarami na tong babaeng toh, may bakal ata kamay netoh e.
“Dyan ka na nga!! Hmpp!!” Sabay walk out siya. Padabog na naglakad.
Oh-ow, is she jealous? Haha! Priceless!
Sabi ko na ee, mahal mo pa ko.
To be continued…
