What if I like being a Guy and a Girl?

Am I like this?

  This is where she finds out what she likes

*It's been a week since I've been in the 7th grade and I'm fucking depressed, the new English Teacher Ms C is making me flustered! Why I'm straight..right?*

Ms C: Alright everyone the rest of the period read from the book and research and I'll check up on you guys while you read!

Victoria: hm( I scoffed as she did so why did she make me flustered I mean she's really pretty and on the first day of school she said she was lesbian so maybe one day... NO NOPE IM A KID I mean she has a girlfriend and she's a good person)

My thought was interrupted when she said I to my ear

Ms C: Are you ok you seemed distressed

I turned my head hiding my flushed face

Victoria: Y-YEaH im fine...

Ms C: Ok just checking in

Victoria:* OMFG WHAT WAS THAT DID SHE SEE ME WAS I BLUSHING OHHH NOOOO I-I I'm not straight a-am I? I MEAN I HAVE TO BE*

(I needed answers I mean I liked this boy in my classes his name was Zachary and I still liked him but why did my teacher make me feel this way?  I decided to do some research and went to google)

Victoria: Bisexual? Am I ? I mean I'm everything that this is so I guess? I'm confused but.... mom and dad don't like this and my aunt she... NO I can't be like this I'm just confused this is a phase right..right?

( I was a supporter of LGBTQ+ no doubt but I felt scared I was in denial for a while a long time actually but I hated myself and almost hurt myself during this certain denial self hatred time period)

Victoria: I-I can't just deny it I clearly like girls I mean my best friend Xander introduces me to his friend and she was hot and I was flustered... oh god

      ⚠️WARNING SUICIDAL THOUGHTS⚠️

Victoria: I'm not right I'm a sin I'm catholic I'm going to hell I felt tears run down my face as I prayed and pleaded with god not to let me into hell I wanted to die and kill myself IM NOT RIGHT I SHOULD BE DEAD IM A SIN I WANT TO DIE!! b-but I can't Susie my little sister she's so young and I can't just leave her behind I'll stay alive for now she loves me it'll break her when I leave...

(Author)
Wooow 447 words I'm impressed I wrote this much see what happens next chapter it's a handful of a story to tell but Enjoy!