Insanity

Eight

I'm done with curling up in the corner. I'm done with feeling weak. I'm done with all the pain.

All week I've been working my ass off. I practised with weapons each morning. I let doctors test me on everything, speed, memory, healing, strength, etc, etc. I trained with Natasha after lunch. Then I meditated with May, learning control. Everything is stiff when I wake up but I keep moving, I need distractions. I pull myself up and jog around the building with Aurum by my side each morning before I shower and head down for breakfast.

I'm in agony but I ignore it. The more I focus on what I'm doing the more in control I feel, I haven't heard from them all week. I can still feel them but they don't say anything, it's like they're assessing me, watching my every move, watching how stronger I get.

I flip Natasha over my shoulder. I place my foot on her chest and twist her arm. I can hear Clint coming up behind me. I remove my foot off Natasha and swing it around to kick Clint square in the chest, he doubles over but he's still standing. He throws a punch and I let go of Natasha's arm to deflect it. My attention is now on Clint, each punch he throws at me I deflect. He punches my stomach and I double over, he takes the opportunity to grab me and try to throw me. I want to try something new.

I push up off the floor and over his shoulder. I clutch his arm as I swing my legs over him and place them back on the floor. Clint'd arm is now twisted behind his back, I kicked him in the back and push him away. I can feel the sweat on my face, glueing loose strands of hair to my face, and pulling my vest-top to my chest. My legs are kicked out from underneath me and Natasha places her foot on my chest. "You've now been captured by the enemy. You let your short victory distract you, you thought you had a moment to breathe. In a fight like this, you must always be on your guard, always moving. You can't always rely on Shield to get you out of every situation so you have to rely on your own strength" She helps me up, "thanks for the pep talk but it's not like I'll be going out into the field in foreseeable future" she shrugged, "you never know"

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"We've managed to locate her base of operations. Our team managed to pinpoint it using the transmission" I pressed my back against the door, listening in to this 'private' conversation. "Hill, I need you to set up a team that will act as a spy. We need people that can keep watch over the ins and outs of the building. Whatever happens, I want to know!"

The door opened and I stood in front of it, staring right at Furry. "I'll do it" I want to do, I want to be able to do some good. "Absolutely not" fuck. You know what? I'm not backing down. I raised my hands and pushed Furry back into his office. "Excuse me? Why the hell do you think you're doing?" He exclaimed. I shut the door behind me.

"I want to be a spy" "no!" "You told me that I was part of  Shield, yet you won't let me do anything. I'm wasting away here. I am stronger than any one of your agents. I am faster than them all and I am smarter than them!" I felt a hand in my shoulder. "Calm down Westwood" Barton. "I am not going to calm down! I want to do this! At least let me try and prove myself" Furry glared at me, a terrifying gaze that would make anyone tremble. But not me. I stood my ground, I crossed my arms and raised my head, giving him an equally cold stare.

"You will go into strict training. At five am every morning you will train to be a spy till twelve pm. You then have training simulators to go through till five pm. Then you will be tested on everything you learnt that day. Do you understand?!" Yes! "I completely understand" I jump and hug him before dancing out of the room. Very professional Olive, well done.

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Ugh, I hate alarms. Especially ones that wake you up. I slowly climbed out of bed and sat on its edge. Aurum lay at my feet, curled up on her own plush bed. It looks comfier than mine, I wish I could curl up in it. Ugh, I smell. I should probably have a shower.