Mathematical attraction

Chapter 69

Minho's P.O.V.
I had to explain myself. We had been sitting watching TV for a while. "Joonie.."

He kept watching the TV. "I don't have to know. I don't need to." He casually brushed it off.

I put the TV on mute. "Actually, you do." I turned to him. "I like that you wait for me to explain, but once I want to you stop me from doing so. Please let me tell you. I can't just jump like this and freak out then not explain why."

He nodded and smiled. "Okay.. If you're good, I want you to tell me. I hate seeing you like this. Trust me."

I slowly went for his hand. "Can I?" He accepted my hand and linked it with his. "So.. The reason I freaked out is the same as my nightmares and why I wasn't very touchy with anyone before. It's stupid but-"

He looked me in the eyes. "It's not stupid. You can be scared. Go on.."

This made me smile. I played with his hand a little. "Well.. When I was younger. My mom was dating a man that she liked very much, but he liked me in a special way too.." I saw his jaw tense, but I went on. "He'd wait until I was asleep to tell me goodnight when he was home. He'd go under the covers, caress my PJ from the ankle to the hip saying I was a pretty girl and that if I ever told my mom, he'd make both of us regret. I tried telling her, Yoongi tried too, but she loved him so much she denied everything. Yoongi started sleeping over when he was there so he wouldn't touch me, but that ended into fight between the guys. One day, Yoongi couldn't come by and he was there. My mom found out that day because she hadn't gotten the time to give me my medication. She walked in on him. Till this day, I still have nightmares of him going further than touching.. I.. If someone touches my legs now, I have to see the hand and know the person. If I don't have both, it just triggers these memories.." I squeezed his hand tight. "I'm really sorry for jumping earlier. I knew it was you.. It was just unexpected-"

My head was on his chest, his chin on top of my hair, arms wrapped around me. "You're brave to tell me you know that? Especially that only Suga hyung knows about it."

I took a deep breath. "How do you know?"

He confessed. "You came here last year in the middle of the night. I heard hyung reassure you and you being mad at your mother because you had nightmares and that you'd never tell her because she felt bad enough already."

I smiled. "Light sleep and good ears.. Good to remember."

"I'll give you the spare key. If you ever feel you'd rather sleep here, knock and come in. Sounds good?" He asked.

I nodded. "It does.. Thanks a lot."

He pulled back. "Do you think you'll need to sleep here tonight?"

I couldn't believe I'd say this. "Can I want to?"

He laughed. "Yes, you can. If you need to take a shower tomorrow, we should go get your things."

I nodded getting up. "That'd be great thank you."

Jackson's P.O.V.
"Hey Joon!- What the.." He seemed so suspicious.. "Why are there 2 cups? You didn't know I was coming."

He scratched his nape. "Well.."

I pointed at the table. "And left over dishes for two.. Was someone here?"

"Joonie! I don't know how to stop the shower the button is stuck-" I startled the one getting out the bathroom. "Oh my gosh Jackson! What the hell are you doing here?!"

"And why did you take your shower here?" I frowned.

"Because I slept here last night you idiot!" She held her towel from falling off her hair. "Why do you barge into people's places like this?!"

"It's the guys' dorm, we don't lock the doors much." I pointed out.

Her eyes went wide. "What?"

Joon passed by her. "I locked the door of the room. Don't worry."

She smiled relieved. "Thanks.."

I was still confused. "Why would you lock the door?"

She sighed a bit frustrated. "Why don't you figure it out?" She stormed to his room.

I had to ask him. "Why is your room hers now? Why is she upset with me?"

He laughed. "You really are stupid."

I remembered. "Did she say yes?"

He crossed his arms and nodded. "Yup, now you'll go all alone."

"Why are you so mean to me?" I asked.

He glared at me. "Why are you mean to her? You ask way too many questions for a Sunday morning." Can't a guy be curious? Sheesh. "Look Jackson, I love that you passed by, but we're going to her grandpa's for lunch so either you stay or you come. Hyung will be there too."

"I'm in."