Falling apart

I need you

-trigger warning for this chapter-

Kara's pov

Lena's still sleeping on my chest, my arms wrapped around her, i bet she thought that i was sleeping yesterday when she said that she loves me more or called me her universe, but i've been awake. I just want her to be mine forever.

I'm failing everything, last week a little boy was nearly killed by his own father while i was fighting an alien. maybe I'm doing a good job in kicking alien's ass but i break cars when stopping some stupid men from driving into some kids. I know everyone's saying it's not my fault at all but it clearly is, i could'nt save them, i'm a horrible hero. Not even the love of my life wants to be mine...it just doesn't matter anymore, i don't. I just want my loved ones with me but i can't have that, lena does'nt want me, i love her more than anything but she just can't

"Kara" i hear her tired voice "are you okay? why are you crying? Are you still in pain?" Shit i didn't even realize that i'm crying. She looks up into my eyes, her head still being on my chest. She wipes away my tears, her green eyes looking into mine, still tired "good morning my dear, i'm fine but my wounds are just hurting a little" she wraps her arms around me, closing her eyes again.

"Is there something i could do to help you?" I smile, she's adorable "please just stay with me" she giggles as i take her hair into my hands, holding it up so I can kiss her forehead but while i move my body, pain goes through my body and i groan in pain.

"Be careful" lena says touching my cheek, taking my face into her hands just to kiss me on the forehead and now laying back on my chest, holding me tight

I love to have her close
Her warm body on mine
I just love her

-one hour later-
She fell asleep on me, she's smiling but it's a sad Smile... her life would be so much better without me failing everything.
Now i feel it again, the strong urge to cut.
I just can't stop it. I slowly get up, laying lena back down, trying not to wake her up. I look down at her "I'm sorry" Is all I can say before going into the bathroom, I know i hid a kryptonite knife somewhere in there.

With my super hearing i can hear lena shift in her sleep- i don't have much time.

I slowly sit down trying to not make a noise, leaning my head to the Wall, placing the blade on my stomach, cutting along the other lines on it.
My Blood coming out of the cuts is green because of the kryptonite. It burns. like fire. The pain causing me to groan.

It's gonna be fine
The pain will be gone

The Blood starts to cover the floor dark red but mixed with the kryptonite it seems to be a greenish black. "Kara?Where are you?" I can't use any of my Powers but I didn't need my superhearing to hear lena shout my name, she has a loud voice if she wants to. A tear's leaving my eye "I'm s-sorry lena, I love you" my vision slowly goes blurry before fading to black completely.

-Lena's pov-
Where the hell is Kara? I stand right in Front of the bathroom door, it's locked. Please Tell me Kara isn't in there, if she is then please just let it be her using the toilet.
"I'm s-sorry lena, I love you" that was kara's voice! Quickly I try to break down the door by kicking it as hard as I can.
"Kara!?" Fuck. "please answer!"
"Just open the door!"
no no no no no this can't be happening.

I can't lose her

"Kara!" I shout again, this time tears Start rushing down

These damn DEO doors!

"Please! Stay with me!"
I look around in the room in panic trying to find something useful

There's a gun! I try to shoot the door open but it doesn't work first try so I try again and again until It does work.

The door finally flies open and i rush inside to See Kara laying there, her eyes closed, blood everywhere. "Kara!!" I run to her side, kneeling down next to her "wake up!" I cry out shaking her, trying to wake her up.
Please Kara, please!
In the panic state I'm in i didn't even see the DEO agents standing in front of the door, they probably heard me shoot the door.

"Help us!" I pick kara up, carrying her in my arms, running back to the medics "Alex!! Help!!" I run over to her

I can Tell she wanted to ask about what happened to her but didn't because she knows exactly what it was.
"Lena you need to get out" she takes Kara, laying her back in bed.

I can't believe she wants me to leave. "but" I really need to know if Kara is gonna be fine "please" Alex says looking at me with tears in her eyes and J'onn running to her side, ready to help.

I take Kara's Hand in mine one more time, placing a kiss on it "I need you kara" I leave the room, trying not to go insane.

-5 hours later -
Kara's pov

"...but you have to wake up, kara please" that's definitely Lena's voice. I slowly open my eyes to See lena sitting next to the bed, smiling bright as she sees me awake "lena..." she jumps on top of me, putting her lips on mine softly "don't Talk. I love you, i missed you so much"

Her warm body on mine, she's hugging me tight. I smile "I love you more"

she falls asleep really fast, her head still on my chest, I guess she didn't get a lot of sleep.

"you're gonna be mine" I whisper

I really do love her

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