you just can't be replaced | unfinished + unedited

you aren't yourself

rosa's pov:

i talked with amy in the bathroom and we decided i should confront jake about it because i was scarier than her... no offence... and also i had an idea of what was on his mind.

jake has been looking over at amy all night, and acting even more weird, he had been wanted this case to close for weeks now, and now that it was finally closed its like he didn't even know what the case was in the first place. i walked up to him, i slightly nod to him and say hi, all he does is ignore me. i take his arm and dragged him to the bar. "okay peralta," i took a long pause "what the hell is going on man? you aren't yourself these days, you haven't been in a while and you're a horrible actor about it, i just wanna help you, so talk to me" he sighed and made eye contact to the bar tender who already knew his usual drink. "its nothing" he said monotoned, i harassed him a little in my little rosa charm and knew after a few drinks he'd tell me what's up. i could see amy across the bar worried as much as i was, i made eye contact with her constantly while shaking my head to tell her I've got nothing out of him. "fine..." he waited for what seemed like forever, and finally he spoke. "i just realized it so suddenly but if i think back it all makes sense" he paused for a minute "im in love with amy or at least I'm falling for her. well i think, she's all i think about, her smile, her eyes, her beautiful sent and that god damn smile of hers...but... i can't have her and its killing me rosa, its fucking killing me" i looked at him and gently placed my hand on his shoulder to reassure him it'd be okay. quit honestly i didn't know what to say, but all i knew was thats how i was before gina and i were together, and i felt his pain. "listen jake, i know the feeling," i paused again just enough so he looked at me for the first time instead of his drink. "and it sucks, but you really never know, maybe one day the odds will be in your favour... or maybe it will pass-" he cut me off "i don't want to wait to see if the odds are in my favour, or if this passes, i want her now... i need her now" i just looked at him, i had no idea what to say, he was determined to get her, but i knew she was just saying how her date with this teddy guy went well, and i knew that jake would do something stupid to get her. so for a while we both stayed quite

then i got up and said "dont do something stupid peralta, broken hearts hurt" basically with tears in my eyes reminding myself of everything my broken heart has been through i grabbed my beautiful wife's hand and walked out of the bar to bring her home. to our home.

-jj