Too Late to Tell You I Love You
Its the first day of school and hey it's my first day in college too!
Ooops! Where the hell is room 31B?? Too bad that I don't have my school directory with me, so I sit there alone in the hallway. It's just 7:30 in the morning and my class won’t start until 8.. Hmm.. maybe I was just too excited for my first day in college. Actually my knees were beginning to weaken and my heart kept on throbbing faster and faster..What was it like to be in college?? Can I find new friends there?? Would there be any terror teachers??
Then this girl came in. She had the most beautiful hair I've seen. Straight like those of the girls in the shampoo commercial. Her eyes were lined with black eye liner making her look like Avril Lavigne. Lucky me She must be a newbie too...
"Hi! I'm Adrian....." I extended my hand which she accepted for a hand shake.
"I'm Stephanie..call me Steph".
After that was a long moment of silence so I decided to break it off.
"Do you have your copy of our school's directory??" She nodded and asked why..
"Can you tell me where 31b is??"
After a moment of checking the directory, she finally showed me.
"You're in 31b right?? Whoa! Seems like you and I are classmates." She said it with a hint of excitement and amazement in her voice.
"Really?!" I just can't help but smile with the thought that I'd be seeing this girl every day.
Steph and I became buddies. She's fun to be with. Actually she's very different compared to the girls that I have met before. She doesn't like pink, she even told me once that she hated Barbie and Hello Kitty. She totally rocks! I was kinda amazed when I saw her playing the guitar and the drums on the music room. I feel like I'm liking her more and more every day. I just hope that she’s feeling the same way too.
One time, I saw her laughing with this classmate of ours. I felt a knot on my chest....
...like...
Oh! Am I jealous???
Maybe, coz I don't want any other guy near her and this statement of her really struck my heart.....BIGTIME!
"Adrian...what do you think of Chester, huh??He's asking e if he can court me.. Should I say yes??
" I don't know.. I don't know him personally. I'm sorry but I cannot tell you exactly if it’s a yes or no.. It's up to you."
“Well, I guess it’s a yes. Maybe I should give him a try.”
I really wanted to say no and tell her not to let that guy court her. But, who am I to tell her no?? I’m just her BEST BUD! Awww. That hurts. :-( So there, Chester courted her and after three months…Steph, finally said yes.
Time really flies so fast. Nothing has changed on the way Steph treated me even though she’s with Chester except that it felt like suffocating every time I see them together. MARTYR… that’s who I am. On our fourth year in college….Steph and Chester broke up. Not because they fall out of love, third party or anything but they one day they just decided to be friends.
That boosted my confidence about confessing my feelings for my best friend. I didn’t want to be rude so I have to wait for three months to be over. I know she’s been hurt since Chester became a part of her life all those three years that has passed. It’s not easy to forget someone who has touched your life and they even though they did not ended that well…at least they are still friends. Good thing is that it’s exactly three months away from our graduation.
Graduation came and it’s the time I’d be confessing. So this is it. I saw her hugging our classmates probably saying her goodbyes.
“Ahmm..Steph..can I talk to you.. In private?” I was stuttering because of nervousness.
“Yeah.. sure. Rooftop??” I nodded and followed her on the way.
“So, what about now??” she asked with curiosity painted in her face.
“honestly, I don’t know how to start telling you this… Steph….I…LOVE…YOU! I know I’m too coward to tell you this long before. Remember the time you asked me abut Chester courting you? I really wanted to say no back then.. coz I don’t want any other guy near you. I told you it’s up to you because I don’t want to be selfish and then after you broke up with him, I waited for another three months for,I know he’s also important to you.” I said all that looking straightly at her eyes. There, I already lost my train of thought. My knees are literally shaking. I saw her mouth slightly gapped open. Maybe a little shocked of my confession. A moment later, she regained her composure.
“Why are you telling me all these now? All the this time, I’ve been anticipating for this moment to come….Why only now?” I don’t know what to say.
“Next month. I’d be marrying Kirby. Even before I go to college, I already knew that soon I’d be marrying him. I told Chester about it that’s why we broke up and decided to be friends.” Now, I’m the one who’s shocked. Stephanie marrying someone next month??? I’m just dreaming right.. but then I’m not. I saw tears silently trickling down her face.
“I’m sorry Adrian, but you are too late to tell me you love me.” She hugged me tightly, then afterwards pushed me away gently, turned around and said…”GOODBYE, ADRIAN.”
I was left there with out nothing to say, just standing there like a statue. I wanted to cry but my tears won’t flow out of my eye. Part of me wanted to chase her but my feet won’t even move an inch. And that was the last time that I saw her.
Here I am on the airport some four hours before my flight to Canada. I applied for a job there and luckily, I was accepted. Today was also Stephanie’s wedding day. Oh great! What a coincidence. Too bad, I wasn’t able to congratulate her personally. So now, I’m checking in….Just one more step before I get in….
“ADRIANN.” That voice made me stop from stepping in. I knew very well who that was. Anywhere I am, whenever I hear that voice, I knew its her.. I knew it was Stephanie..
I turned around and quicken my pace out of the line to find a girl in her wedding gown…the girl who I had loved from the very first time that I saw her.
She closed the remaining gap between us and slammed her body against mine. I can feel her heart beating so fast.
“Adrian… Adrian… I thought I’d lost you.” I can feel her sobbing while saying those.
“Why are you here?? What about your wedding??”
“There will be no wedding today coz my future husband is not in the church.”
‘What? Did Kirby ditch you? Where’s that punk?? I’m gonna punch him on the face.”
“Nope. He didn’t ditch me. He let me go because he knew that he’s not the one I love and my heart already belong to someone else. My heart belongs to you, Adrian.” She said all these looking intently into my eyes.
Moment of silence surrounded t7he atmosphere. I don’t know what to say.. I’m just speechless.
“Tell me, Adrian, is it too late to tell you I love you??” I can’t believe this can be happening to me.
“No.. You’re just in time, baby.. I love you, too Stephanie”. An that, I sealed it off with a kiss. Well, I can say that it’s never too late for us to say I love you.
