All I Need

一

They left him behind.

Again.

Namjoon has just gotten back to the dorm after a long meeting with the managers and CEO. They were discussing the next tour. It wasn't like the meeting went on longer then expected, the meeting actually ended early.

The members knew he had a meeting and would be back in time to leave.

I guess they got tired of waiting for me?

Namjoon's heart ached.

He was left behind.

Though it hurt, he disregarded the pain and walked over to the sofa.

The members must have been hungry after a long day of practice.

Namjoon told himself this over and over, cause they would never leave him behind.

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When they got back they laughed and talked as they made their way to their rooms, completely ignoring Namjoon sitting on the sofa scrolling through his phone.

It might have looked like Namjoon was engulfed in something interesting, but he was aimlessly scrolling through a random article, he was trying to fight the urge to cry.

They did not forget about you.

When the members were all in their individual rooms, Namjoon dropped his phone into his lap and covered his face with his hands.

He kept telling himself over and over that they did care about him.

It hurt that they didn't ask if Namjoon ate dinner. In fact he didn't. He didn't eat lunch, or even breakfast.

They didn't seem to notice.

They didn't seem to care.

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That night Namjoon got to work. He got to work on his next mixtape.

Mono.

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The next day during dance practice Namjoon kept messing up. He mentally scolded himself for staying up to work on his mixtape.

He could feel the frustration from the members as they had to keep going over the same part. At the end of the day they ended up making no progress.

It was all Namjoon's fault.

The ride back to the dorm was silent and tense. Namjoon felt guilty. He was scared to make another wrong movement. He was scared to loose the members.

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Namjoon ran straight to his studio when they got back. He stayed in there for a few hours but decided to leave to get some food. He hasn't eaten since the day before yesterday. He was starting to feel weak.

As he walked into the living room, he noticed that the members were watching a movie together.

Without him.

He was forgotten.

Left behind.

Namjoon frowned instantly and turned around going back to his studio.

His appetite was gone. The need to eat disappeared.

He didn't need to eat anyway. He was fat and ugly enough.

The comments on twitter are right. I am the ugliest member.

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Hey guys!

I decided to change up my writing style a tiny bit. Sometimes exploring the unknown can bring unexpected rewards!

Lol

Anyway, I decided to write another sad and depressing story about another bias of mine! Hope you guys enjoy!