Is She Fixable?

Chapter One

Alice's POV

I wasn't aware of the fact that I was crying until I felt the cold tear run down my now pale cheeks, slumped against the wall I cradled myself, knees clutched close to my chest with no idea of where to go from here. I question how I ended up here in the first place. A few years ago I was 16 years of age and had everything any teenager could have wished for, both of my parents were happily married we owned a nice home and I was popular at school to a certain degree, so all in all life was comfortable. Things began to change when my father left me and my brother Eli. He was only 12 at the time so struggled to understand why his dad wasn't at football practice or why he was never home for tea. At school science was my subject, I loved it right until my grades began to drop and everyone began to question what was going on, I was on track to gaining a place at one of my top choices of universities so why would I let things slip now? My best friend Katie began to worry and it was evident when I couldn't hide the hurt in my voice anymore the day I told her about my dad.

Shaking off the negativity and the flashbacks I hate to recall, I pick myself up from my bedroom floor burying the many dark secrets I hold left by the man I once loved in the back of my now slightly more focused mind before helplessly staring at the work in front of me, knowing I have to pick up my grades I get my head down and revise for tomorrows test I need to ace it I have final exams in a few weeks time so need all the revision I can physically take and after all next week is my 18th birthday so I need to keep my mom in a good mood.

* Next morning *

My usual alarm of 8:30 rings through my room while my phone constantly buzzes under my pillow, groaning I role over desperately trying to find the source of my annoyance, I decide on jumping in the shower in an attempt to tame my messy hair back into its natural waves. With it currently being the end of September the weather is beginning to get a little cooler, I pick out my black ripped skinny jeans and pull them on over my still slightly damp skin along with my black crop top before wrapping my red plaid shirt around my waste, taking one last look in my mirror and settling on the skater look before grabbing my black and white wool coat from my wardrobe, I head to the down stairs bathroom to apply my usual simple makeup and red lipstick and to brush my teeth. Tugging on my heeled ankle boots my phone begins to buzz in my back pocket. Taking it out I find I have a text from Katie.

* Outside by your car, you ready for school yet? *

I type out my usual morning reply that Katie knows so well

* Chill bitch you're early ;) coming now just grabbing my bag *

Throwing my now full bag over my shoulder I shrug on my coat as I grab my car keys before shouting a brief goodbye and I love you to my mum before leaving to begin another day, Katie waits patiently by the passenger door of my baby blue Fiat 500, at first I feel as though the atmosphere is slightly off, I know my best friend well enough to know something's bothering her before she even has the chance to speak. Katie is more of the bubbly, outgoing creative type earning herself a place in university for a joint degree in photography and art, looking over at her as she buckles up I decide to question her throughout the fifteen minute drive to college. " You okay Katie you seem a little quiet today? " Hesitant to answer she picks at her fingernails.

" Alice I'm honestly not sure whether or not I'm okay, my final portfolios are due in next week and Jake broke up with me for not coming to his friends party so I could finish the work, I feel so shit but at the same time kinda free. "

" wow he's clearly not worth your time honey, you deserve a career over a stupid boy, let's go out tonight after college to dance and take your mind off things " when she doesn't instantly reply I question her a little more " Katie you okay with that? "

My best friends personality slowly starts to come back as a grin spreads across her face as she realises we are both now single and that its time to have some fun, I know her well enough to not wait for a reply to my previous question, we pull into the school parking lot shortly after and go our separate ways till the end of the day as we both have different classes. I make my way to biology with the determination to ace this exam I have a long career as a doctor in front of me and I need the grades. My pencil taps nervously against the desk as I look over the just marked test, relief washes over me as I realise I had in fact aced the shit out of this quiz, the same pattern follows throughout physics, chemistry and maths my mom will be so proud. Heading to my car I find Katie already waiting with biggest smile that has ever graced her features, "Hey what's with the grin " she smiles politely before answering my question with a stress free aura about her, " I finally finished my portfolio's for art and photography all I have to do now is study a few pieces for my written exam, you still up for that night out I need to party "

With stupid grins plastered all over our faces and half of Katie's wardrobe being at mine we head home for some tea and a quick change before heading out to town for a good dance, vodka and men, not knowing how this night will end excites me I can't wait to let my hair down.