Broken apart💔

Broke apart

     Each and every second on my life is incomplete without that attractfull gaze which works more stronger than a magnet which attracts all my force on it. That moment is speechless for me in which tears forms group together just with the bad intention to make my vision go blury and it's more noticeable with a bright shine and is stubborn to go away like rust. It's totally uncontrollable like flowing waterfall even though I waste my whole precious time patiently searching for it. And a result appears without making a difference especially the deep agony you've packed up till decades at the top of your heart which almost could bear.and never still have the thought to run away as thieves and kidnappers which actually don't have any point to live I guess. Which have changed the whole lifeline of me and turned my world upside down crulely. It is more than strange just having to react with some feelings which doesn't even mean anything and no emotions which is one great difference from the past realm and back to the future realm which is born with a habit of darkening my perfect life just in a shed of tears just 10 years ago as I rememberd.

     And I would be pleased to gain that perfectness walk in to my soul once more which have fadened the brighteness and the darkened my life without feelings. And let me tell you a deep secret. You were the reason why a stretch crossed on my motionless lips. And now of course you are the reason which blurs my vision just with that cunning glare you throwing knives at me. And you are there you end up in every statement I state.it distracts from more necessary stuff even for some answerless reason.its just that now I'm popular as the loser,failure,messed up,love blinded and all noncences which is totally not true forcing me to bear it.

    And that reminds me of the feelings which I've even appreciated once, agreed and now been abbreviated by mostly because of a cunning person which is cunning than a wolf which undoubtfully can be no one else except you who I loved more than my soul too but now now where to be seen.its a lie I actually aren't.i mean I still do care and all even after all this.what is all this supposed to mean? And I have the right answer for this answerless question roaming around as if without a shelter. And the answer which is short and sweet after all and it is just that " I LOVE YOU". Even though I try to gulp down even though you threw away those as a dirty past and go to any extent like a total coward and can be more than a cunning wolf in view.