where can I go?
how can I begin.
At 16 I'm depressed
I tried taking my life at ten
I began hurting so long ago
I thought id be numb by now
but it gets worse.
it feels like salted wounds on the inside.
I cry out to no help!
my family isn't there for me and
neither are any friends.
I cry out
Oh God yet the silence never ends.
why? what have I done?
Oh Lord I take it back starting from day one.
why can't I be loved, why cant I be touched.
am I ugly? am I fat? or am I cursed?
I long to die, but they say its wrong
ill go to hell!! so Instead I bleed.
I bleed hate, I bleed confusion I bleed eternal despair.
I have been abandoned and used.
I have been hated and abused.
No father to love me
no friends to care.
my mother is even dead
hated my childhood cause I was always alone.
I was shown little affection even now that I'm grown.
I want things to change I don't know how,
ill die if something doesn't happen now.
where is my hero? is he also dead?
I need saving from this isolation
will it happen or will I be eternally alone?
