Im writing this because im so sick and tired of being in this screwed up mental state. Ive been in it since I was 12 (im almost 15 now). It got better for some time (or maybe i didnt pay attention to it) but then 2019 came and my mind just turned against me.
It's like a part of my inner voice hates me. Now that I think about it, she hardly ever says she loves me. Instead she bogs me down, calls me useless.
I had no idea insecurity or whatever you call this demon could get so dark. To the point by day I'm going around laughing and happy (most of the time) but every other night I go to bed feeling like nothing bu darkness.
It could be this one small thing (like not liking my hair) and I would go to bed wanting to sob.
She knows my every secret and uses it against me.
Goes to my past and uses it against me.
Over and over again I hear I should end her and end her. And I say I know I know.
BUT IVE HAD ENOUGH.
Bxtch im just snapping. Putting up positivity quotes everywhere, writing myself love letters, meditating every single day. IVE BEEN WITH THIS DEMON TOO LONG.
So to let her go I deicded to express how I feel. I also want to be open about my self love journey and hopefully encourage others to improve their mental state.
It doesnt have to be just confidence. Anything involving the mind. Ive made some of my poems versatile so everybody can relate.
But do know they'll be cursing and anger everywhere! Because im murdering my demons. (dont tell the police)
Thanks for reading. ❤
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TO ALL THE DEMONS IVE EVER KISSED|poetry
PoetryIt is the year 2019, we are the modern age. We are the age of self doubt, anxiety, depression, insecurity and sadness. We have fallen but as long as there is a sky and ground there will be the will for us to stand up. Stand up against the demons who...
