Syana Walsh moves to a new school after a tragic event takes place. Which causes her to become mute. She and her family had to take signing lessons. Her parents want them to run from what haunts her. Though she is terrified that it will come back. S...
WARNING! SELF HARM! °°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°° It has been a week now since Reece broke up with me. A week since all the bullying started, everyday I keep my hood up on my head. It went from just being bullied at school, to being bullied anywhere I went and social media. I started cutting again. I feel the need to slice my wrist so deep so I will bleed out. I know it has only been a week, not bad right?
That's not true. It went from just being words, to being beat. Then it went to people cutting me. Outrageous. I've been keeping a razor blade on me since I've started cutting again.
I am sitting in my room looking at messages people has sent me. They are harsh. But it's not like I can do anything about it. I can't go to someone for help. No one can help me now. I am helpless. Hopeless. I am nothing.
You are fat.
You are ugly.
You look like a guy.
Your clothes are ugly.
Everyone hates you.
You are a slut.
Your voice is annoying.
Do us all a favor and go kill yourself.
You should invest in a gun so you can use it on your head.
I know you have been cutting. Finish the job and slice deep so you'll bleed out. You deserve it.
No worries. I am thinking of doing that anyways. I need to go for a walk. I slip out from under my covers and put on my slides. It is nine at night. There couldn't be anyone out now to harass me, right?
I grab my razor blade and slip it in my pocket. I head down stairs and quietly slip out the door. I start walking then I pass by Reece's mom's house. The lights are on. But it looks like someone is sitting on the porch.
I continue walking then about two streets over I here a noise behind me. "Who's there?" I say. But there is no answer, so I say it louder.
"It's me sunshine." I hear. How? How is he already out? It can't be. He is in prison. My mind is now harassing me. I know it. Because he couldn't have gotten out.
"Are you scared? Because I can see it on your face." He says.
"Where are you?" I scream.
"I'm right here." He says, walking into view. He has a smirk plastered on his face.
"Kyle. Please leave me alone." I basically beg.
"Now why would I do that?" He laughs. He then takes big strides to me and grabs me. I let him though. I am done. I have no fight in me anymore.
"You're not going to try and fight me?" He asks. I shake my head. "I broke you." He laughs.
"She said leave her alone, now get out of here!" I hear another voice. It sounds like Reece. Then he comes into view. It is him. Kyle let's go of me and hits my foot causing me to lose my balance and fall to the ground. He gets in front of me causing me to not be able to see Reece. I push myself off the ground.
"What is this to you Reece? You don't care about me! Let him take me! It's not like it will bother you. You just pitied me...." I mutter the last part. Kyle turns around and smiles at me. But he also moves over causing me to see Reece again.
"Finally you realise! Of course he doesn't care sunshine. I am the only one who truly cares about you!" Kyle says. He doesn't care about me either.
"Syana, I did it because of him! He told me to break up with you and start rumors and cause everyone to bully you, if I didn't do as he said he would kill you! See! I care! I love you Syana!" Reece screams. Then he walks towards me.
"I can't take this anymore!" I scream. I reach into my pocket and grab the razor then I push my sleeves up. "I am done! I am done with everything!"
I put the blade to my wrist then look at the two. Reece has a scared look on his face and Kyle is smiling. "Do it!" Kyle says.
"Syana, please don't do that! I can't lose you!" Reece begs.
"I can't!" I scream. Then I hear Kyle start laughing hysterically. I turn my head to him and he looks up at me.
"Oh, I'm sorry. Go on." He says.
I push the blade hard into my skin and dark blood starts pouring out. I drag the blade all the way across my wrist then I do the same to my other wrist.
I watch as the blood starts pouring out of my wrists. Already, there is a puddle of blood at my feet. Why does this feel so good to see the life drain out of me?
I look up at the two guys and Kyle is laughing and Reece looks like he is about to pounce.
"You!" Reece points at Kyle. "This is your fault! You wanted this to happen!" Reece then runs to Kyle and starts throwing punch after punch. Kyle is now on the ground and Reece is still going at it. My vision starts getting dark so I yell the first thing that comes to mind.
"I love you Reece!" After that I see Reece start running to me and then everything is gone.
Everything happened so fast it seemed. It's crazy how someone's life can be gone in a second. It's crazy how I finally feel better now. There is nothing that can hurt me now. Nothing! I am free!
I did it! I am gone. My body is now just a corpse. My body is just something my spirit lived in, so was it really even mine? How is it that I already feel better? I am not hurting anymore. It's like I am here but not here. Everything is dark. It's like an abyss. Is this how it is going to be for me now? I guess it's better than having to deal with everything else.
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