Pieces

The Ending.

I look up at his teary eyes after hearing him say the words I always knew I would hear one day -
"I-I'm sorry, Elyse.. but.. I- really lo- "

His voice cracks as he breaks down again, turning his face away , not wanting me to see his vulnerable side. I've seen him cry a million times before and never has he been so scared of showing me how weak he really is. It tells me that this time it really is goodbye.

I understand that it's just destiny . I knew from the beginning that the heir to Xia Corporation could never stay mine. He was born into his role and its just both our bad fates that we fell in love with the wrong people. I knew this day would come, but my foolish heart still wanted to get hurt by loving him.

I manage to make him face me as I stare up into the most honest eyes that I've ever seen, eyes that can reveal everything a fake smile can hide.. the most beautiful pair of hazel eyes. I feel his every emotion through them... it's a magical feeling, but somewhat fearful. There's so much emotion in his warm eyes that I'm scared I could lose myself in them. But I'm already losing myself through losing him. 

The wind blows my hair wildly in the empty park as it gets darker and I can't help but notice the constant notifications lighting up his phone. It's a reminder to me that time is no longer on our side and that he has to go now.

Its then that I can't take it anymore, seeing him cry, seeing him having to give up the lifestyle he loves, for his fate that was already written out for him as soon as he was born .. it was just much..

Knowing I was failing to keep my calm, he embraces me for the last time ever. His familiar faint scent of coffee mixed with his cologne immediately comforts me, making me feel at home. I want to stay there for eternity, with his warm arms around me and the harsh but yet soft breeze cooling the intensity of the situation, when he gently pulls away. His lips merge into a soft smile as he then presses them against mine. Butterflies go crazy in my stomach as though it's my first time kissing my crush of 4 years.

His kiss gives away his feelings of yearn and desperation as his hands slowly move up to my upper back holding me gently. I kiss him back, returning the same passion.. for the final time before his one-way flight that he was about to miss if he didn't leave straight away.

I'm going to miss you Jay, I'm going to miss you so much.

I don't want to miss him, it'll only bring sadness.
I need to learn to live without him.
But can I really live without my love?