Unspoken

Trust

It takes years to build trust ,
Seconds to break it .
You could do me wrong I won't trust you again but we'll still be friends ,
Many people are clueless I know what they've said of me-
When they betrayed me .

I blabber on about small idiocies because my trust in them is no more
They see it as my normal behaviour ,
That's the rare occasion I'm thankful I'm like this.

Almost an adult but still makes pinky promises because they're the only physical sign I can use as a symbol of my trust
You put on a show of being trustworthy but I've experienced many knives in my back.
Add another one in the collection, why don't you?
After many years I'm numb to this anyway.

Now I would rather give the double edged sword of honesty and see what my links do with it.
Unsurprisingly they're like every other mindless mortal .
They call me names
throw their insults like stones
Once they've realised that my medicine can also be a poison
Yet isn't that just common sense?
What may be a small dosage for an adult may be too much and kill a child.
The antidote I give you isn't going to be one for all
The same way the type of trust I have for you may be different from someone else's it doesn't mean I trust them any less/more it's just like people are different so are the ways I "cater to your tastes"
All to make you trust me .

I've made myself as shallow as water
So as quickly as you step in you're back out
I showed you me without falsity even if it was too simple of a character.
That's why so many of you trust me and know 'me' without having "midnight conversations" with me it's better that way to be honest , it's easier to let go .
It's easier to burn that bridge and to throw away the trust without even a scratch falling on me for I hate pain and will happily stay this way.
But I can't .
Just like I changed through these years I will change again this tactic though useful makes a friendship with me a trinket that can be easily thrown away it was made when I enjoyed being alone.
I still do but have learned the value of others
Of friends
Family
Lovers (although they're always cartoon characters lol)
I will change and I will lose some of you as I do
But because I respect you, even if we break apart in the worst way I won't spill your secrets to prove
You can always trust me.
Even if you hurt and scorn me.
I will hate you but
You can still trust me.