November Rain

Chapter 10: Regret?

Gue duduk di atas kasur meninggalkan Brian yang masih berada di depan wastafel kamar mandi. Whatever Nick is hiding from me about Fania, it doesn't simply justify what I just did with this guy. This is way more than just wrong. Dada gue udah nyesek banget ketika gue menyadari dia duduk di samping gue.

"What's wrong?" dia meletakkan satu tangannya di atas punggung tangan gue.

"You know what's wrong." gue cuma bisa menjawab lirih.

"Is it your boyfriend, Nick, or the girl we met in front of the mart?"

He knows. Dia tau semuanya dan tetep melakukan apa yang baru aja kami lakukan.

"Us. This." Gue jawab singkat.

His warm hand touches my cheek to make me face him. Now I notice the tiny little dot he got above his right eyebrow. Unexpectedly his lips touch mine once again, slowly this time, and I still let my guard down once again. My guilt melts within the pleasure of his tantalizing presence. He takes it very lightly, holding my nape, and eventually he halts after a few seconds and stares deeply into my eyes.

"If there's nothing wrong with your relationship, you would've refused this since the very start. But you didn't." he said, playing with my fingers he's currently holding with his right hand.

Damn. His words just pierced deep down to my heart. I almost cry but I hold it in.

He takes my phone, lifts my hand, and puts my finger on it to open the lock. Then he types some numbers and dials, which apparently calls a phone from across the room. His phone.

"Gue simpen nomer lu ya. Buat ngirim foto-foto lu ke whatsapp." ujarnya tetap dengan nada tenang.

Nggak sepatah katapun keluar dari bibir gue untuk menjawab. His kiss has seemingly made my lips numb. Dia berdiri dan membereskan beberapa barangnya di atas meja.

"I'm leaving. Setelah gue kirim foto ke whatsapp, it's your choice. If you want this to stop, ignore me, or block my number. Gue bakal titipin baju ganti buat Ucup ke receptionist besok and you can take it from there. If you don't wanna see me."

Dia mengambil dan menyampirkan ranselnya di punggung dan dengan tanpa ragu-ragu kembali melangkahkan kakinya ke depan gue yang masih duduk terpaku di atas tempat tidur. Sambil membungkukkan badan dia mencondongkan wajahnya, kali ini untuk mengecup ujung hidung gue dan tersenyum, sebelum akhirnya meninggalkan kamar.

Gue membanting diri ke kasur dan menarik selimut sampai ujung kepala gue nggak keliatan.

Ffffffccckkk.

Gue menerawang ngelamun sambil ngerasain hati dan perut gue rasanya kayak diaduk pake mixer Maspion selama entah berapa lama.

Hape gue bergetar tanda pesan masuk

Brian 18.07
I didn't regret anything we did.
And I wasn't joking.

Berani-beraninya?!

Rupanya dia udah menyimpan kontaknya dan menamainya sendiri tadi. Demi apa ya? Demi kutukan lele atau si Bambang hidup gue yang selalu selow dan datar-datar aja selama ini, tiba-tiba langsung dilanda badai sekencang ini.

It's true how I wished my love story would've been more exciting because I've been treated wholeheartedly all this time by my nearly-perfect boyfriend. However this, is beyond my expectation of 'exciting'. This has almost changed my love story into a thriller. And I am the villain.

Gue nggak tahan lagi dan harus segera menangis sejadi-jadinya ke Indira. Gue telepon dia saat itu juga.

"haloooo?"