high school emotional trauma(HSET)

episode 5:3 weeks

"This is the worst decision I have made all my life ,I am too young to be in a relationship, why did I get carried away by a mere "I love you",right from the day I accepted to be his girlfriend ,anytime I see him with other school girls I get extra jealous,what's happening to me, what have I put myself into ,nawa oo is this what dating is all about,I think it's time to breakup with John, I can't do this anymore, what is happening to me?" I said in my head while washing my clothes ,I just realized I had washed only two tops for thirty minutes, I quickly erased the whole thought from my head and started singing random Nigerian songs.
   When I finished washing I decided to go to the school field and watch the football game ,it was the school team versus Eastern Enugu highschool,John was with a group of girls ,he saw me and came towards me.
      "Who are those girls." I said without a smile on my face.
     "Which kind of rubbish question is that ,so I cannot talk to other girls because I am dating you ,please just leave me alone right now you're not ready to talk." He said as he walked out ,I stood there like a big fool ,he just made me look like a small child who just got shouted at by her father.
Anyways I thought maybe I was wrong to question him about girls ,he is not gay so he should have a lot of female friends , nothing wrong with that .
Three weeks gone into the relationship, one faithful Thursday after classes I had gone back to the hostel ,I really needed my sanitary pads,I had run out of those so I decided to get some at the store, as I walked towards the water fountain I saw two people who were kissing ,I started recalling scenes of John kissing me,when I looked properly it was John,John!!!,he was with the social prefect,I ran towards the store to avoid him noticing me ,I nearly started crying like a baby while walking back to the hostel, a thousand thoughts were flowing In my head, damn why didn't I listen to joy!
    Early in the morning ,Joy had done her usual early morning greeting ,she always greeted me even if we were not talking, I didn't respond because I still had that pride in me ,I took a bath ,wore my clothes and made way to class,I met John at the corridor, I walked past him without saying a word ,he drew me back and said:
   "Ah,babe this one you crossed me like that didn't you see me?"
    "Please John leave me, I'm not in that mood,so you're really the player they call you."
    "What do you mean?"
   "In case you do not know I saw you with the social prefect enjoying yourselves at the water fountain yesterday."
   "Wait that's a lie, biko it's not me you saw,ah nawa oo."
    "John I'm not blind please I have class."
     "See this fool o ,you were spying on me ,so you don't trust me in fact it is over ,what am I using you for, what do you have to give kwanu,abeg it's over ,thank you." He said smiling.
Those words of his cut through my heart ,I was really heart broken, I should have listened to Joy,this is the last time I am going to date , I promise.
  When I returned to the hostel,I  apologized to Joy and she said:
"No need to apologize,I understand ,it was curiosity that led you to that,anyways I've missed you, here's a book I kept for you ,you would really love it,the name is  "the meaning of love" by Naismith Jason "
"Thanks Joy, I will read that later ,thanks a lot ,I'm so hungry let me go and buy snacks for us."
   "I will come with you ." she said as she jumped out of the bed.
I was really happy everything was alright, phew!! My roughest 3weeks.