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Everyone can actually see or create the future in past, i mean more specifically, what you wanted now, what do it now, it repay from what the future holds, if god wills, your plan is success.

I was a kid, 15 years old, that actually know nothing about to plan what im going to do my present life. I'm a next generation, of humanity existence, i bet my parents already dead that time i guess.

But the truth is, im the little girl, who actually fear what the future would be. I want my life completely happy with someone i love, someone who can bare my attitude and behavior. I might think, this is too young to think about the future would be. But not everyone must does think that.

I'm a coward, yes indeed. I'm the girl who actually coward to face the fear. As much i want too, I plan my life works. 21, i want to get married. Obviously no one thinks about that, since you're 15. I'm 15 years old. I might look childish, immature, clumsy, being idiotic human being at school, i bet my friend laughing when she read about this.

21, everyone want freedom, especially when you are already big enough to handle anything without your parents help. You are free. Be a young adult who needs more experience that it could be, i decided marry at the age of 21.

Because why? No one pray what if you have illness that be your obstacles, to create the future. At least, i got 6 years to more live, that time i guess. At this moment, i don't feel like im 15, no I'm not. I'm not a hormones teenager, no i feel like im getting matured by my mental works. Yep

Let's be more clearly, at the age of 15, everyone is fun, happy, might be a broken heart, cry because your boyfriend left you. Too much entertainment, in your life. Sometimes we are human we don't care what will our future would be? Am i right

I have religion, and i believe in the one who created us, the obstacles you live in 'his world, universe' i believe in God. Not Jesus, (but i do believe on Jesus as a prophet not a god) but Allah. I'm a muslim. I rarely talk about Religion, this is one of reasons why. When you're religious person, the one you think is God. (Serious im not religious as u think but, i think a logically way)

Do you think that our time will stop ticking? Yes, indeed right. When the 'ulamah' talk about the end of the world, what do you think? In holy Al- Quran, and hadith, they even talk about the future gonna be. Every milisecond, there's would  be a change

The reasons a really clear, and specific. I'm so scared to face the next generation of ours. Do you why i want to marry at the age of 21. I have no reasons, but i do a solid reasons, which is, at that times i spend my life with the one who i love, and i raise my kids.

I just create the plan, but no, you know, if God wills, then i marry at the age 21. You know 21 is a good, choices when its comes to parenting works. I bet i have two kids, at least i raise them, with a lot knowledge than me.

I want to be a good mother that times. People would think " you are still kid, you need focus on your study" that's why im a kid, i can actually think my future. I want my life be a great, I don't wanna be rich, rich as people want to be, but i want be a normal, that everything enough for a good family.

27, it was actually, a huge gap, at my age now. I decided to die that time, on holy months, if i have family, my kids would be missing me, my husband will be more sad, my kids will not have a chance to feel the warmth of mother. My kids is still young will be a huge sadness of they life.

Call me selfish, im decided not actually i died at that times. Maybe you guys said, you don't what future is. I told you already, I'm scared to face the new world, new generation. Let's my kids face it. I hate when changing of the number as 2019 next to be 2027 or something.

Even my mom, actually scared to face it, and what about me? This world live really in long long time. You know, at least i watch my kids, raise before i die. You know, im not gonna kill myself, but like i told you, if the reason i die, which is replacing as the illness. I don't want to, i really don't want, and I don't want to pray i have those.

We don't know, we actually don't know what we gonna be. As much i want to live longer, married at the age of 25, i decided, im scared, very scared. If you are Muslim, you what it is. The time is change, every ticking, its gonna be fast as usual

You might realize but you actually ignore it, you realize that the end of the world is closer. The obstacles that next generation would be. You know what it is, based on Quran and Hadith. For the moment i spent one hour writing this, its for actually your own good

I don't know what will happen to me, not what already plan about, I don't know, if God takes my life wherever my times it comes, i want everyone who reads this, think about your life would be. Im not great at this but i tried.

You don't need to follow like mine. I just plan but not actually, want it. I don't what future would be, i dont when im going to die, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, no i don't have any single clue. Not a single milisecond, i dont know what would've be.

As much i want to this world continue, as the day after tomorrow, months by months years by years, we don't know. As much i want our extinct human realize the consequences what would be, the global warming, ice glare, war between president. WORLD WAR III, LGBT community issues increasing, liberal community increasing than choose the right religion.

Look at surround you dear people, this is a our world we live for.

That's all for me thank you

If anyone have a problem about my story aka my life, comments wherever you want, don't be triggered be cool, let's talk about your opinion.

I know some of you are not one of muslim, might be not understood what the perspective my stories is. You are free to talk about it.

We are not different, we are human, but we have our own opinion.