Day one
June 1, 2019
8:56pm
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Today I slept 7 hours I wanted to go back to sleep but I had to go to a party. We went a a gymnastics place where you have a pit,lots of ground,a big red clock, etc. I ate 3 waffles,hash browns (2), 6 chicken wings (flats), and some veggie fried rice. I probably won't go asleep til 3:05am tomorrow morning...it's always like that. I'm getting more into Bendy and the Ink Machine. I like bendy he's cute and adorable also protective with remorse. He just doesn't want others to know he's illness with fear they will leave him or think it's ugly. I also think everyone except Mean Alice Angel is quite nice. I am getting into singing my emotions and not keep them bottled up. I don't do it often but only at the end of the year. Tradition. I am getting into Five Nights At Freddy's too. I just love the music and story. I only get out of bed when I have to use the restroom or my hunger is tired of being ignored or I'm thirsty or I have to. I try not to be a push over. A person who asks for a lot. A person who is rude. I try not to be that. When I wanted a pound cake that was $6.45 I said no it has to be under $3 so I got a cup cheesecake which was $1.34. You may say 'How!?!' or 'WHY!?!' That's because I don't like asking....If I ask anything or get anything I start to think about if I needed it or how it will effect us as a family group. It hurts at times. I try not to be like this but it's hard man....My mom said I could get the cake because I was eyeing it and mumbling about how it would taste but I said no..... it's hard man. I try... but I think I'm not doing enough.... I wanna try harder but it doesn't help.... it never does... whenever I see a homeless person I wanna yell stop to give him water,food,money...but it could be fake... even as my heart breaks as we move I try to move with it and forget but it doesn't work.... Im I strong or am I weak? Do I have a strong heart to want to try? Or a weak heart not to do it? I'm conflicted man! I'm sorry for wasting your time....
-Alyssa
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9:18pm
June 1, 2019
