Friendzone?

chapter 1 (if only)

"Knock knock Alex let me in!!!" he didn't answer "Alex I'm serious open the door or I will!!!" he still didn't answer "OK Alexander you asked for this" I turn around "guys break the door" I ordered my men "yes ma'am" they push their way inside until the door breaks open it took 5 minutes but it finally opened, "thanks guys, now go get some rest outside" after they left I went inside, the room was pitch black all the curtains were closed and the lights are out then I notice that the places was really dirty and messy its like a gorilla rampage here or something, come to think of it someone did rampage here, I turned on the lights then I saw Alex sitting beside his bed while holding a bottle of alcohol I run towards him then took the bottle way from him I looked around and there were 5 empty bottles of beer in here and there still one left that isn't opened, "Alex your still too young for this, what in the world are you trying to do to yourself huh?!!" He looked at me seriously "Gab stop telling me what to do tsk!!!, your not my mom" he told me then grab the last bottle and tried to opened it but I immediately took it "stupid nagging Gab will you stop ordering me what to do, give me my beer back you nagging old lady!!!" "stop this alright, your acting like this just because Valery broke up with you, I didn't know your this pathetic" he stood up then he held my shoulders tightly "what would you know Gabriella you never had a boyfriend nor a love life so what make you think you know so much about what I'm feeling right now huh?!!" You dummy, who says I didn't have a love life you just assumed that I didn't have one because you never ever thought that it was possible for me to fall in love with you I really wanted to say that but I couldn't, "I thought so!" He lets me go and he lands himself in his bed "stupid.....nagging.....old.....gab.." He said before he falls asleep

I tuck him safely in his bed then I sit beside him while looking at his face "I guess you really do love her huh?" I reached for his hair "I wonder if I would go crazy like you do now, what if you find out that I do love you then you rejected me will I drink alcohol and drown myself into despair just like what you did now to valery" I just kept talking and talking and before I knew it I'm already crying "Alex I'm sick and tried of you acting like this after your break ups, I'm sick and tried of seeing you crying and drown yourself into despair, if only..... If only you knew Alex, how much I care for you, how much I hate seeing you like this and I wish you knew how much I love you, if only you would choose me you wouldn't need to find another then you won't get hurt like this" I wipe my tears "when you said that I didn't have a love life so how will I understand you, I got really hurt..... Because I understand the pain your feeling because I'm just for friend I'm always the best friend and I think my pain in more greater that yours because you.... You just met her a month ago but me I've known you ever since kinder and ever since then you already marked as a friendzone because no matter what I do you will never see me.... As your special someone....."