Anica's Love

AL #1

Anica Grace

Boredom striked me and now I want to sleep but I just can't.

Why? Because I'm in school! Tada! School! Damn school on a Saturday where it should be a student's rest day!

I checked my phone to check if my boyfriend texted me.

Nope.

He didn't.

Wala naman silang klase pero bakit di siya nag t text?

Why even? Am I just paranoid?

I still don't believe what they just told me a few days ago.

Pero ilang araw ko na rin napapansin na nanlalamig siya sakin since the day that he went to school.

I am starting to doubt.

Two weeks earlier ang pasok ko kesa sa kanya. Magkaiba kami ng school.

Reason? Not in good terms ang parents naming dalawa.

I've got the feeling that he's cheating on me. But nah. I trust him and that's for sure.

Why? Because I love him.
That's all that matters.

I checked my last message to him.

It was sent an hour ago. So I typed something to send asking where is he.

I tried focusing on the lesson being tackled.

Kanina pa ako di mapakali.
Why?

I know there's nothing wrong with me.

After twenty minutes, he replied and says he's at home doing his household chores. Why won't his sibling do it?

Simply because he doesn't have one. He's the only child.

I replied something telling him to rest and just text me after finishing the household chores.

He said okay.

But I felt like it didn't feel the same as before. Or was I even hallucinating?
Or imagining things??

If so then I should see a doctor soon.

Ten AM. I last texted him at eight AM. It's been two hours and yet he isn't replying to me.

Here comes the break time but he's not even talking to me. I guess their house was really dirty. Besides. He's the only one cleaning the house so maybe that's tough since he's a guy.

I analysed everything.

From his cold replies and treatment until what I am feeling about him right now.

We don't use to see each other these days.

We've been busy due to schooling. But I felt something.

Odd.

Strange.

I don't like the feeling.

I am losing feelings for him.

I waited for my classes to end before I confronted him. Ayokong umiyak habang nag k klase at mas ayokong umiyak ng maraming nakaka kita sakin.

For me crying is a sign of weakness.
Crying is like letting the opponent see how fragile you are.

We are still texting each other by the way and I can tell that it's being colder and colder. The cold replies. They kept breaking my heart little by little.

At dumating na nga ang pinaka hihintay ko. Uwian. I tried to make him come to the school where I was going and yet he refused telling me that he is resting from doing household chores.

Aaminin ko, nasaktan ako dun.
Eh lagi naman, ginagawa niya lahat eh. He goes to me kahit pa pagod na pagod na siya. he makes a way but why can't he do it now?

I just texted him that I'll tell him something.

And to my surprise he told me he wanted to tell me something too.

So I typed a message
" You don't love me anymore or some sort?"

I closed my eyes as I sent the message.

My phone beeped.

It's his reply.
"Yeah"
"I'm sorry Anica"

It felt like my heart sank somewhere after reading the text message.

I smiled. A bitter one.

I asked him for the reason. Because after all, it's still my right to know why.

"Anica. I found someone better. I don't love you anymore I'm sorry."

Was his reply....

I went home broken.
Pag pasok ko palang ng bahay, tumambad na sa sala ang mga tropa ko na nag simula pa nung mga bata palang kami.

Aaron, Kitty, Andy and Mikhail....

"Oh? You're here b*tch come on and let's play uno. Aaron and kuya Andy is no match for me"
Kitty said happily as she put her cards down.

I just nodded as I pass them.

Bigla silang tumahimik. Alam ko alam nilang may mali sa akin.

I changed my clothes into shorts and big shirt.

I dived my bed and started crying silently.
I was in that state for about fifteen minutes when Kitty knocked at my door telling me to open it.

Nag banta pa nga ang gaga na sisirain niya daw ang pinto. At alam kong totoo yon kaya binuksan ko na. What Kitty says. She does.

"Sheesh why are you crying?"
She asked me

"I'm broken. Get lost" I said as I dived my bed again.

"Anica. We've been telling you that it will happen. Look at you b*tch. "

"Kitty. Stop it. Just get the hell out of my room and let me have a time for myself"

I managed to say as I cry silently.

"Pull all your sht together Anica. the tropa is still here."

I didn't respond so maybe she took the opportunity to talk again.

"Anica, stop crying. We already told you the reason why he's acting like sht to you. I don't know what are you up to but you didn't believed us even if there's already a proof of what's happening. "

She sat in my bed.

"You don't have to cry about that bastard Nica. We are still here and hey, I know guys out there are waiting for this day so that they can court you. Tell yah. There's this guy Jake waiting for you to be single. Come and date him after you fix your broken sht"

I smirked

"Excuse me btch. By chance do you know what are you talking about? Jake is a part of that damn fraternity. Don't wanna date him"

"You don't wanna date him but you wanna move on right?"
Move on? Yeah right.

Of course who wouldn't??

I fell silent as she looked cheeky at me.

"See? So come on. Let's go out. Let's  go to my bar, my treat come on"

"No one's gonna know?"

"No one btch. Trust me"

And then I find myself changing my clothes and fixing my hair so I would look presentable.