Anica's Love

AL#3

Anica Grace

I wore my new clothes on.

Off shoulders matching my skinny jeans and cardigan.

It's raining hard but I still chose to go out and meet him to talk. After the break up, I haven't talked to him personally.

Again, I felt my heart beat so fast.

As I look at my self in the mirror, I can't help but to see how the break up affected me.

I sighed.

Never would I expect that I'll be experiencing to do these things.
Like studying real hard so I can forget.
But at the same time? I drink liquor and do vape. Weird combination I guess?

"You want us to join you? I'll drive you there?"

And here's Aaron and kuya Andy, being so so so worried.

"I'm not a kid anymore gentlemen. Okay lang ako. Besides, mag pahinga na lang kayo. Hindi lang ako ang dapat niyong asikasuhin, meron din yung mga rich freaks sa subdivision, baka nag aaway nanaman ang mga iyon"

They both laughed.
I was referring to Kitty and her cousin

" Mag iingat ka doon Grace. Usap lang walang suntukan."
Biro ni kuya Andy.

I laughed.

"Walang suntukang magaganap. Kayo ang gagawa nun kapag nagkataon"

I smiled.

I bid them goodbye as I wait for a jeepney ride.
Wala eh. Gusto kong mag tipid.

I am not rich to ride a taxi noh. And besides barya lang naman ang babayaran sa jeep eh. May instant driver ka pa.

Ayoko na ipag drive ako ni Aaron. Mainit dugo non sa ex ko. After all I am spoiled to them. Silang mga tropa ko? They're all mad at him.

Hindi ko rin naman mai alis sa sarili ko na umasang magka ayos kami. After all? It's been days.

It's just days. Not weeks. Not months and definitely not years.

Just days to move on.

Sa kanya na nga lang ako natutong mag seryoso, manloloko naman ang gago. Putek na iyan.

Pumikit ako. Pakiramdam ko kasi maiiyak nanaman ako.

Dumating ako ng ligtas sa meeting place namin. And I see, he's there. He completely changed a lot..

From how he look at me...
To how he dress...

He looks... So different....

And look who's talking about change ..

I looked at him with a straight face.

"Hi"
He smiled at me.

Tinanguan ko nalang siya. I was so lost for words.

Oh fck me for my beating heart

Hello to earth to me AG, matagal na kayong tapos.

Last week lang... Ni hindi pa nga dumaan ang isang linggo...

I sighed again.

"Wh-why..."
Fck me again for letting a tear drop off my eye...