Dear R, 😍
Agape mou?
The day I first saw you was a bit awkward, you know, being new in the company, but I really didn't care much about it as work was the only thing on my mind. Gossip was rampant, damn, you're famous! Then lately, one of my colleagues, Yna, seemed to admire you excessively. Is she in love, maybe? She always talked about you to me, and I supported her because she's my friend. Time flew by, and suddenly it was September 1st, Jungkook's birthday, my nampyeon's birthday. But what the heck, we became partners in the same department with just the two of us. You know what? I didn't like it one bit. I was even scared of you at first, with your eyes looking red—I thought maybe you were a drug addict. Turns out it was just sore eyes? Then there was a moment when we locked eyes for a minute. That's when I realized the boy standing in front of me had long eyelashes, a long nose, brown eyes with kissable lips, and fair skin. Maybe you're considered hot, but for me, you're a hot jerk cursing machine. Man, I don't like you. Remember? But then, you started teaching me about the products with a mix of jokes, and you could be sweet at times, like a child, and then revert to being cursed again. Are you addicted or something?
I always pushed you towards other pretty girls, even towards Yna, but it seemed like your attention was always on me. "Brad, look at those beautiful chicks," I'd say. And your response? "You're still more beautiful in my eyes." I didn't quite believe it because you're a playboy. But you kept doing nice things for me, even sweet gestures that made us seem like a married couple, as Sir once said. However, amidst all this, I couldn't understand why suddenly my heart would race every time you approached. Did I fall for the playboy? This is what I hated the most because there was another woman who seemed to have fallen for you. I pushed you away because I didn't want to hurt anyone, especially since you and Yna became a thing. She was happy then, so I distanced myself from you, not wanting to cause any pain. Am I just foolish?
After a few days, you stopped talking to me much. Our boss even noticed and asked, "What did I do to you? Why have you been acting differently these few days?" You behaved differently, but then you laughed and approached me. Remember? Was that an eye-to-eye talk? Can I know? But I distracted you that time because I needed your help. You're such a tease, even sporting a smirk. But I'm confused about what I really feel. Maybe that's how it is when you have a crush on someone. But I couldn't confess because I was scared that it might vanish the next day, and I couldn't explain it. Why?
While pondering what to do, someone was already watching. You know who. Days passed, and it was the same: minimal conversation, me pushing you away, and pointing out pretty girls, including Yna. But you always insisted that it's only me. You're such a trickster.
Then, after 20 days, a girl suddenly applied for a job. She was simple yet aggressive, always cracking jokes that made you laugh. And love? When she appeared, your attention shifted towards her. You laughed more, shared more, and I was happy that you were moving on, but deep down, my heart ached. I wanted to stop it, but I couldn't. And then I heard the news: you're dating Yna first. Damn! Double kill? I felt like my heart was shattered into a thousand pieces. But I needed to be strong. I knew it was right not to fall for someone like you.
You looked happier, but you deceived two women—your girlfriend Yna and Monica, who you seemed to have feelings for. The office was abuzz with gossip, painting Monica in a bad light and supporting Yna. And me? I just kept quiet. I never confessed my feelings for you, not even to my best friend Cane. She didn't know I liked you because if she did, I'd be in trouble. She even advised me to ignore the rumors, and I followed her advice.
Cane, you know what? I wish you'd stop us from being partners. But thanks to you, tomorrow we won't be partners anymore. Kuya Danny will be your new partner. Haha, thank you, but deep inside, I'm unsure. Tomorrow, we won't be partners anymore. But the words still echo in my mind. I told Kuya Dan that he shouldn't be afraid because I'm here for him.
But how come you didn't do that when we were still partners? You walked out that time. I wanted to tell you something, to talk about us, but I didn't. Maybe because I wanted to heal, to be happy. So, take care always. I hope whoever you choose between them, it's genuine. I know Yna loves you deeply. But Monica, does she love you too? And as for me? Maybe it's time to move on?
Sorry if I push you every day and call you silly, a jerk, a crushing machine, saying I don't like you, I hate you. It's true, really. But you know what they say: the more you hate, the more you love.
I hope you're happy.
Lovingly,
Rose (⌒_⌒;)
