Inside my mind- A diary

Pt 1: You

Hi, i'm X. Welcome to my mind:

I've always felt like there was something missing. I can't quite put it into words, but it's a feeling. A feeling that i've been urging to experience ever since i was young. A feeling that only exists in my mind. Everytime I put my headphones on, I get a little sneakpeak of that feeling, but just a little. The music instantly turns my imagination on. I'm suddenly not me anymore, or I'm me but a "better" version. It's a version of me that I've always dreamt of. A person who has it all, a perfect body, a perfect family, perfect friends. Basically, a perfect life. I know what you're thinking "there's no such thing as perfection". And I know that. But still, in my mind, perfection is all I seek. Don't get me wrong though, I have many things in life that I should be very happy and thankful for. Such as being healthy, having food on the table and a roof on top of my head. But I can't help but feeling like there is something missing. I would say I live most of my life based on what I wish for in the future. The main reason why I'm always feeling incomplete, is because I never live in the moment. It's very hard to stay present. But on the other hand, the present doesn't always have something to offer me, something to hold on to. My life, in the present, is so basic, yet so complicated. You feel me?

(Thanks for reading the first part. I'm not quite sure how I am planning to continue this story, but I hope it makes more sence as I upload new diaries). Love/ X ❤️