Music is my Insanity

Music Is My Insanity

I was in my bedroom listening to music. I heard a rock begin thrown at my window. ~Just those stupid kids next door.~ I heard it another 3 times and went to look. Some guy was outside my window motioning for me to come down. I grabbed my iPod just in case this goes south I don't want to go to the mental institution... Again. When I get mad if I don't listen to music I tend to... Explode and lose my mind for a few minutes and beat up nearly to death who ever I was talking to or got me mad. I only wake up when I'm about to give them that hit that will knock the life out of them. But music helps me calm myself. I call it the beast inside I me waiting to be released. I go outside and say "Who are you and why are you here?" "I'm James, I go to your school. Your Violet right." "Yes, why are you here?" I say slowly losing my patience. "I'm new around here and I was hoping you could show me around." "What do I look like to you? Some tour guide. I don't know this place any better than you do and I've been living here my whole life, so if your looking for a tour guide your asking the wrong girl." "No, why don't we figure out the city together." "Why are you trying to be my friend? Why aren't you making fun of me like everyone else? What's your angle?" "No angle, I just want to help every spirit I can." "Spirit, what are you talking about? I'm not a spirit. People can see me." "Because you allow your presence to be known, you are not alive. But who am I to judge... I'm not alive either." I narrowed my eyes and "Did you get hit to many times over the head and know your hallucinating. I know a mental institution you can go to." "You don't believe me, you just failed." "What?" He just transformed into some goblin, grim reaper, skeleton creature and devoured me whole. I was sucked into to a black hole of nothingness where I would wander aimlessly for eternity. The same song I would listen to to keep my sanity is the same song that drove me insane as it was played over and over again forever. I was not alive and neither are you.