"Ano bang meron kayo?" Sabi ni Ali
"Friends"
"Pero ang sweet sayo?"
"It's normal Ali. I guess we're just close. Bakit ikaw din naman yinayakap moko"
"Well Marcus is different, he's a guy"
"And guy friends can be clingy just like girls" she rolled her eyes, kumuha nalang siya nang chichirya at tuluyan itong kinain. I sighed looking away.
No one knows that I like Marcus, besides. I know that we are just friends nothing else.
"Are you thinking about Marcus?"
"Are you thinking about Rackie?"
"Tss, I'm serious Kess"
"Of course you are" sarcastic ang pag kakasabi ko "Look, Ali.. I'm sooo done with your questions. Paulit ulit"
"Kasi ayaw mong umamin!"
"Umamin na?"
"Kayo ni Marcus"
"Oh come on! Don't go there" i wanted to scream at her face saying that there's nothing going on between us and Marcus "I'm tired okay? Marcus and I are just friends that's it! Stop asking me questions"
"Tss"
"Why, kinulit ko ba kayo when I thought something was fishy about you and Rackie? But I waited, hinintay kong aminin mo, and if there is something going on between us and Marcus I would have told you immediately"
"Okay, chill" tumayo nako "hey! Where are you going??"
"I'm gonna go home" I hate na ganto kami ni Marcus, na parang meron kami na wala. I'm tired of people asking what we really are and I will always end up saying 'no, friends lang'. Damn it why did I fell for someone who can't even catch me?
Inis kong sinipa ang bato sa lapag at patuloy na nag lakad, fuck me, him, everyone!
*Ring ring ring*
//Marcus//
*Decline*
Binuksan ko ang pintuan sa sasakyan ko at tumuloy sa bahay..
I'm alone again as usual, no one is home, my brother is probably at work and my mom is probably somewhere not sure mabye hanging oit with her friends
I sighed, wala akong kaayos ayos ang buhok ko ay naka bun at naka malaking tshirt ako, pero may short naman ako, besides nasa bahay lang ako para saan pa ang pag aayos.
Should I watch a movie or nah? I pouted my lips looking at the screen and using the remote to look for movies, I nearly jumped when I heared someone rang the doorbell.
Huh? Is kuya home already?
Pumunta ako sa labas at binuksan ang gate laking gulat ko nang makita si Marcus sa labas. Kita ko ang titig niya na animo'y nag tatanong "Marcus why are you here?" I asked confused.
"I thought something happened"
"Huh?"
"Hindi mo sinasagot ang tawag at text ko"
"Ahm.." think of reasons Kessel! "Low bat"
"Okay"
"Uhm, aalis kana?"
"Nah, can I go in?"
"I.. guess so" pinapasok ko siya at sinarado na ang gate, pinag buksan ko siya nang pintuan
"Home alone huh?"
"Yeah, my brother is at work while my mom.. i think she's with her amigas"
"Akala ko kasama mo si Ali"
"Well.. umuwi agad ako"
"Why?" Nag kibit balikat ako "May soft drinks ka?"
"No, I bought us some milk tea, and shawarma rice"
"Woooow"
"What?"
"Ayaw mong linilibre ako"
"Yeah. Well I thought you were sick and I was nervous.. na baka."
"Wala nakong paki, nagugutom nako" kinuha ko ang plastic na dala niya.
"Akala ko kasama mo si Rackie, sabi kase ni Alisson--" natigilan ako sa pag sasalita nang maramdaman ang kamay niya sa beywang ko at ang mukha niya ay nakasubsob sa leeg ko. Gusto kong kiligin but some part of me knows he's being friendly, I don't want to put any "malisya" kasi for the past years ganito siya kahit man sa public place.
"Marcus"
"What? Naiinis kananaman?"
"Yes." Bumitaw na siya kaya nakahinga nako nang maluwag.
"Marcus.. you should stop being really clingy to me, people thinks na we are dating kahit hindi"
"Let them be" sabi niya at sumipsip sa milk tea higit na matangkad si Marcus sakin. Kaya inaasar niya ako na maliit
"Marcus, it's.. not okay for me"
"Why?"
"I don't like people thinking that we are dating kahit hindi, kalat sa campus na walang nanliligaw sakin dahil akala nilang boyfriend kita at bukod dun ay kaya walang babaeng lumalapit sayo"
"Why? Gusto mo nang boyfriend?"
"That's not what I'm saying Marcus."
"Edi ano?" May pag kairita sa boses niya
"Andaming issue! Nakakainis nakakapagod sagutin, nakakapagod mag deny okay?!"
"Edi wag mong ideny. Hayaan mo sila."
"What? Are you gonna let them think that we are really dating kahit hindi?"
"Yes, why not? Let them think what they want to--"
"Marcus, alam kong wala kang paki sa iniisip nang iba pero don't you think it's too much closeness?"
"Im comfortable with you Kessel."
"Why not with Ali?"
"She's dating Rackie"
"Si Freya--"
"Sayo nga ako komportable, tapos ang usapan"
"Naiinis nako"
"Lagi naman!"
"Lagi ka kaseng ganyan! Ang gulo gulo mo!"
"Damn it Kess, I'm comfortable with you that's why I'm clingy--"
"Edi putang ina mo!" Inis kong singhal "Can't you really see? I like you for fuck sake Marcus! Hindi ko alam kelan basta nalaman ko nalang okay?! At napapagod nakong hinahayaan mo lang akong gamitin! Pakiramdam ko kase rebound ako. Naging ganyan ka sakin simula nung nawala na yung ka m.u mo. At first I don't really give a fuck about you, kahit sa mga pangungulit mo. Pero tao din ako nakakaramdam." Nag iwas ako nang tingin at kinain ang shawarma, kinuha ko ang milk tea at linag pasan siya.
"I-I'm.. sorry"
"What?"
"I.. I thought hindi ikaw yung babae na mahuhulog sakin since.. since hindi ka marupok, malakas ka, hindi tulad nang iba that's why I used you para maka move on" ramdam ko ang sakti sa puso ko.
"Huh, so I was correct the whole time?"
"Kess I'm really sorry.."
"Successful ba?" Pag bibiro ko. Yumuko siya "I hope na naging successful, don't worry Marcus. Kaibigan parin kita. Walang mag babago dun. Depende nalang sayo" ngumiti ako at lumapit sakanya "Mabuti sana kung umuwi kanalang muna, coming from you malakas ako. So It's okay. I already knew. Hindi kolang masabi kase natatakot ako, pero it's okay." Tinignan niya ako sa mata
"I'm.. really sorry Kess"
"It's okay" tumalikod siya "Wait, milk tea at shawarma mo, sayang naman."
Kumaway ako sakanya "Take care" nang makalayo ang sasakyn niya ay nakaramdam ako nang pang hihina, ever part of me feels weak. I can feel tears running down my cheeks.. fuck.. malakas ako pero nakakapang hina lahat nang to
