JUST SO YOU KNOW
(By: InfiniME)
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Pain. One word to describe what i really feel inside.
Pain. Is part of loving someone.
Without Pain we wont be strong enough to fight for them.
Let me tell you MY story..
A Typical Highschool Story. Well it goes like any other stories would. The guy i like. Wait let me rephrase it, the guy i Love cannot reciprocate what i feel, or so i thought. He always hurt me without him, knowing..
You know what? the biggest mistake someone could ever do is the mistake of not trying at all.
I've tried to mask all the feelings away. And that is one thing that i regretted so much. I somewhat despise myself for being such a coward.
Theres this guy.
I hate him. I hate the way he talks, The way he moves. I hate the way he say my name. I hate his existence. He's a reckless dumbass. He is a flirt. But i kinda get used to it.
We dont talk that much, in fact we're not even close.
Yes he jokes around and sometimes talk to me, But theres nothing more.
AKO yung tipo ng babae na hindi pasikat, I hate being the center of attention. Im a nerd at hindi ko kinakahiya yun, ano bang mali dun diba? Atleast hindi ako two faced bitch, Or a great pretender. Ako yung nagpapatunay ng 'what you see is what you get'. Yes, I've been bullied pero theres no more hard feelings that i used to feel whenever i see those who bullied me. Wala na sakin yun. Again being me, Mas pinili ko na naman ang masaktan kesa magtanim ng galit, ano ba namang makukuha ko diba? Masama yung itinanim ko what more pa kaya yung aanihin ko right?
SIYA yung tipo ng lalaki na sikat. 'Famous' kumbaga. Wala naman akong pake sa mga sikat na yan. Cause for me they were just a bunch of attention seekers na walang ibang ginawa kundi magpapansin. Puro Physical Appearance nila yung inaatupag nila tss. Pinanghahawakan ko parin yung quotation na nabasa ko sa internet 'A pretty face wont pay your bills'. Which is para sakin totoo naman.
I was happy living in reality. But ... That day .... That confusing day ....
I just found all the walls i built to mask my weaknesses shattered to the ground because of what they called LOVE..
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"Ley!!" napalingon ako sa tumawag sakin. Si Neon pala, bestfriend ko, Her name sounds masculine pero girl yan. Teka sino yung kasama niyang guy? Dali dali nya kong nilapitan kasama nung.. err nung guy..
"Hi im - -" i interrupted him
"did i ask you?" pataray kong tanong sakanya. First time i saw him nainis na ko sakaniya kase masyado syang papogi >< he just smiled at me. Okayy pogi na kung pogi but i still dont like him!
"girl! what's with you? gusto lang naman makipagkaibigan nung tao." then tumalikod na sya. I can imagine Neon pouting.
"Neon would you please stop being childish? besides ilang beses ko ba dapat sabihin na hindi ako nakikipagkaibigan sa lalaki."
humarap sya sakin
"Bakit nga?!"
"i've already told you the reason a hundred times Neon. di ka pa ba nagsasawa?" natatawang sabi ko. Sinuntok ako ni Neon ng mahina at ayun pumasok na kami sa room time na e. Nga pala First day of school namin ngayon. Naupo ako sa pinakadulong upuan na malapit sa bintana. Just like what Anime protagonists do.
