If life was as sweet as we hoped, maybe I wouldn't feel empty. If I had not seen all the people whom I loved broken and ruined because of love, then I would still believe in love even to this very moment. But, the bitter reality and the dark destiny that I pass through make me unable to feel love. Am I dead? Is this feeling dead? Can I feel love again? does voidness and emptiness are the only feeling i can feel? Hahaha. Pathetic
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The author relaxed her hands after posting the writings on her personal blog. Honestly it is really heavy. If there is a more severe word than the word heavy, then it will be used. If only she could easily open her feelings to everyone, perhaps she would not have had a terrible life. If only-
Suddenly, a knock dispersed her daydream. With forced, she wakes up and opened her room door.
“Minna-ssi dinner is ready. Mistress asks you to go down now”
“Strange. Mom rarely had dinner with me. Why is it?”
“I don’t know Minna-ssi”
“Alright… Will Eonni and Oppa also join dinner?”
“Yes. They are already at the dining table. Only you who have not joined”
Minna breathes long and smiles weak on her opponents.
“Okay… I will go down. Thank you Taeri Ahjumma"
Minna immediately go down and go to the dining room. After she stomped into the dining room, she immediately sat down beside her brother and sister.
“Anyeonghaseyo”
“Hm… Sit dear. Let's have dinner”
Honestly Minna is very uncomfortable and restless. How not, the atmosphere of this dinner was very quiet and not a single voice. Heol even Minna feel the sound of her chewing food can be heard by the maids from the room next door. Minna imagines whether grave atmosphere can beat this silence. So akward…
“Minna dear-“
“Stop the useless chit-chat mom. What do you want? Just say it”
Yes… Minna already know that it is impossible they will only have “dinner”. There will be no dinner without hidden reason in this family. Depressing. That’s what engraved inside her head for 18 years of her life living in this family.
“Mom wants you to get married” what. She whipped.
“WHATT?! MOM HAVE YOU LOST YOUR MIND ?!” Minna immediately banged the table and dropped her fork and spoon.
"Minna!! watch your language young lady. Get your ass on the damn chair right now?!"
No. Minna hate this. She knows sooner or later this will come. But not now. No, she’s not ready to get married.
"Mom, isn’t it enough?! you made Oppa and Eonni married without their wishes!? Why are you never satisfied?! Why are you so f*cking selfish?”
“What do you mean?! You know this is all the best for us and you. I do this because I want you to be happy”
“LIES. BULLSHIT. You're destroying me. I hate you?!”
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Dead Feeling {ENG Ver}
FanfictionPark Minna also known as Minna Emily Parker was forced to get married to a rich and successful businessman. She hated it. She hated forced married. Mostly she hated. Him. Jeon Jungkook. The guy who will be her future husband. She hated him. Why? Bec...
