HIDDEN FEELINGS

chapter 19

Aaron point of view

I had just left the cafeteria leaving Emily all by herself , I felt bad for what I did but she is the one who cut me out of her life like I was nothing to her , today was the anniversary of her mother's death and all I wanted to run in her arms and comfort her the best I could, but Michelle was right I can't care for someone who could not visit it she was the one who completely cut me out of her life like was nothing of value to her not forgetting the fact that she bluntly refused to visit me in hospital , I was the one who always care about her but she ever cared about me and friendship cant be one sided so cant be with person even if i love them to death if they do not value my friendship was going to ignore her and that was a promise she needs to feel like she made me feel "worthless" that was a promise I made to myself though it was killing me inside to do this, but Michelle was right and I had to be strong

Coming out his thoughts Aaron is greeted by sight of of his beloved Emily waters in tears with a worn out look on her face as if she hadn't slept days was on the verge of giving up on life and all he wanted to do was comfort her because watching her in pain was hurting him too much , hurting Emily was like hurting himself he was dying inside but he knew his girlfriend was right Aaron walked past her like she was no body important continued to hall way where those Jason awaited before walking to class together

Finally in class Aaron Kimberly Damian Michelle Jason Anna waked into class to find miss Hopkins teaching way only for turn face them miss Hopkins was being weirder than usual and in very val mood and called me and my friends out for being late to class , we apologized to her and took our seats and class went on as usual though during the class I could sense a dagger eyes piercing through the back of my neck turning around I noticed it was Emily the only girl I had ever loved staring at me like would stare at monster or a person that scorned you, judging from the way she was looking at me I could tell she needed to talk to me because it was first time in twelve years that she was going to be alone without me on mother's death anniversary I was angry at her but mostly worried about that she may hurt self

Emily had suicidal tendencies Whenever things didn't go her way or when she was too depressed to think , she could go out of her way to harm herself I was the one who always saved her from herself people knew Emily as the popular girl with the perfect life but she was far from that, she was hurting soul Who always bottled up her pain and feelings screaming from inside wanting someone to save her and whenever the pain was too overwhelming she could cut herself and bleed out , tendencies where developed after the tragic death of her mother it hurt her because her mother killers where never brought to justice , this drove Emily wild with grief causing her to fall in a depression that almost killed her and it was only me and her dad who knew this, so even if I was angry I had to follow her and make sure she does not do something stupid and reckless to herself.

Emily continued through the hallway in tears smartly ditched those of Michelle and carefully flowed Emily stillthly making sure she doesn't notice my presence Emily continued in the parking lot got into her car and drove away I quickly got into the cab and flowed her

After an hour of following Emily around she came to stop at an abandoned ware house, coming out of her car she carefully looked around to make sure no one was watching her before continuing into ware house finally in , I come out of hiding spot and flowed closely behind her only to find her with a knife in hand

"I want do die my mother left me, my friends don't want me and my best friend can't stand me I given up everything and I don't think I can get my friends back after everything i have done there is no coming back from that, and now that I have failed I want die. " Emily said as she was about to stab herself

"Emily don't do it. "I said as tried reasoning with her
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" I have do it, they is reason as to why I should stay live l lost my friends , my popularity and you , you were my confidant my best friend and I can't see you with any one else Aaron hurts too much and for first time on my mothers death anniversary where you n not with me I just want to die. "Emily said drawing knife closer to her body