hey baby girl
come here
you should know
that you ain't have nothing to do
or say
or feel.
there is no force.
don't feel like quitting because he seems weird sometimes
don't feel trapped
you are not.
Don't feel like you owe him anything
don't feel like you have to text the way he does
or say things the way he does
or act like he wants you to.
Maybe you feel like it has to work
cause he has feels
but maybe you are unsure
don't hate yourself for that
it makes you strong.
Being strong is not as bad as you always think it is.
I know that you are craving weakness
being able to feel weak
in front of him
but it has so much to do with opening up
and you are not ready yet
that's ok.
And you are thinking so much about his family
and about his actions
you are even thinking about how boring your conversations seem
and how to entertain him
that's not your task in this at all.
And let them judge
each and every one of them
and don't care at all
let even him judge you and dont't fucking let it kill your vibe or intertwine with how you behave because if he is serious
-and you have to find out if you want it to be serious-
he won't care and he will stay.
And maybe stop analyzing so much
even though then it feels like your loosing control.
You are allowed to think about that other boy
because nothing has happenend yet and he doesnt own you.
As long as there is no bond
that he couldnt have with anyone else
just go on
like you did
you will find your way
with or without him
and there will be love
always.
