🌼🌹 Do I love you, really? ~ Alemanda/Mandalesha🌹🌼

🌑 Chapter 6 🌑

Includes rape ⚠️

Alesha's POV: 

Amanda's soft skin, grazed across mine as she moved around in her sleep, she turned to face me, moving out of the spooning position we were in all night. She was still sleeping, she looked so peaceful. Her hand moved to my breast, making me jolt, the stomach butterflies from last night returned. I really liked Amanda, but did I love her?! I knew that I liked girls as well as boys since my young university years. I hadn't been any girls though, only guys. None of my relationships ever worked out. I hadn't had a mutual breakup since high school, most of them had been messy and ended in tears. I got cheated on, more times than I can count on one hand, I got into many fake relationships, ones where the guys dated me just for their reputation, those ones never ended well. My last relationship was abusive, I was beaten, used for sexual purposes, disrespected. That's why I chose not to commit to a relationship  for the last 6 years, my past relationships scarred me, and I had never felt ready to commit to a relationship with anyone else. Every time I seemed to be in a relationship I was always used, nobody loved me for me, I was just like shit to everybody. It really did hurt though. It made me feel so unloved and worthless. 

Alesha's POV in flashback: "Fuck you Alesha!" Azuka bellowed, as I cowered in the corner of the room. I was sobbing with no sign of stop, "please, please I'm sorry" I begged, through chokes. "SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH!" He yelled, grabbing me from the collar of my shirt. This just made me cry more. "Stop being a pussy, you dumb shit!" He hollered, chucking me onto the cold, hard floor. He hovered over me and slapped my face, repeatedly. A sharp sting took over my sore face, making me weep more. He started undoing the loops if his belt, as he stood over my weak body. He took of his trousers, leaving him in his boxers. "Strip!" He commanded. "I-I don't want--" I mumbled, still crying heavily. "ALESHA! DO AS I SAY, NOW!" He shouted, his voice echoed loudly in the room. I obeyed, absolutely terrified. I took of my baggy top and jeans, leaving me in my underwear. It seemed so wrong, I felt so uncovered, even though he was my boyfriend, I felt so naked already, despite our many times making love to each other. "Oh fuck that!" He grunted, pulling me off my knees. He unclasped my bra and took of my panties, viciously. "You were taking so fucking long!" He said slamming his penis into me.  I gasped in pain. "Please stop! Please" I pleaded. He didn't, he just thrusted harder. I couldn't do anything but cry, as he raped me. "Suck!" He commanded, forcing his cock into my mouth. I didn't have the physical energy to do anything, I felt the tears touch my stinging cheek, making my face burn in pain. "DID YOU NOT HEAR ME? SUCK IT!" He demanded. He moaned and grunted as I sucked on him, "harder!" He moaned. When he was finally done with me, he kicked me hard, in the stomach, before pulling his pants up and walking out of the door. I closed my eyes, tears still spilling out of my eyes. The stabbing pain in my stomach continued to throb. I looked up at noticed a pool of blood spilling over the floor, then everything went black.

 I awoke to see moving bright white lights, and a distant, echoey, chatter, people wearing white masks, constantly peering down at me.  All I heard was a series of beeping, and muffled voices, but then I heard an audible clear voice "Alesha, baby, I love you, everything's going to be okay, please stay strong for me" I heard Amanda mutter, it was clear in her voice she was holding back tears. "Wha- Manda, don't go, please, don't leave me" I whispered, as I struggled for breath. "I'm right here" She reassured, holding my hand. "Don't.. don't.. let him t-take me, I want you." I sobbed. "Alesha, he's not coming back, I'm not gonna let him touch you I will take care of you, I promise" She said, allowing tears to fall from her face. "Amanda, I can't breath" I choked. "Follow my breathing, breath in and out for me... in... and out" she instructed. I did as she did, finding it slightly easier to inhale. "That's it, good girl" She said, calmly.  "Ms Holden, if you could take a seat, in the waiting room, while we escort Mrs Dixon to the operating theatre" said the nurse. "No..." I whispered, suddenly feeling woozy. My eyes shut but I heard the faint calls of Amanda, being taken away. "ALESHA! LESHA! No, I want Alesha! Please let me stay! Alesha I love you!" She screamed.