Hold on Tight (Ronnie Banks love story)

Sucker

After seeing clearly I think I found my way. I'm looking for a lawyer and life's pretty good. Ronnie is out the hospital. I check on him everyday. I just really cant complain anymore.

"Mama come watch Dora with me!" Emery said before grabbing my hand without giving me a chance to answer. She sat down in my lap and as much as I didn't wanna watch that I enjoyed watching it with her. She dozed off and I took her to her bed. I went back in the living room and continued to watch TV.

Text from: Ronnie

i miss you

me: I guess i miss you too

OK so me and Ronnie are going through a divorce obviously. We were only married for a few months. We were young and i was pregnant at the time so we thought it was a good idea. Didn't picture this. So I'm no longer mad at him. That's so unhealthy. We can talk like adults now because every time i used to see him i cursed him out. He flirts with me a lot. I remember one day we were so close to having sex. But i just cant keep running back to him. I'm slowly learning. Plus Em was there lol

*back to convo

Ronnie: let me come see you

Me: no Ronnie and you know i cant do that.

Ronnie: don't act dumb

Ronnie: I'm coming anyway. see you in a few minutes

Are you kidding? This boy just doesn't know the word no.

Knock-knock

"um no one is home go away!'

"I will come through the back door little girl." 

"dammit Ronnie!"

"you need to lock that. Now's where my kiss ?" he said walking up to me 

"go kiss emery not me."

"dont play with me."

"im not. look i told you we are only parents toward each other. No friends with benefits type shit."

"and why, because somebodys afarid they will catch feelings?!'

"nah not over here. they been dead."

"damn that hurt my feelings."

"my bad." i say laghing

"well since you dont want none of the "d" but i know deep down you do, ima go say hi to my kid."

"whatever loverboy."

I don't want the d but I'm gonna be honest. I need it! its been so long and its been horrible not having him anytime i wanted to. But i cant let him know i want him. I just don't want him to know 

"she wouldn't wake up for me."

"yeah she fell asleep on the couch." 

I could feell he was behind me. I could feel him breathing on my neck. His breath was so minty. I thougt i was in love all over again.

"Ronnie please." 

"one last time. you want this as bad as i do."

And he wasnt lying. Oh what the hell.

*Erika is just a sucker for ronnie. I mean but you cant help but to fall for him either right?! Erika and Ronnie back on??