Psychiatric Hospital (Jai Brooks)

Almost at breaking point...

Everyone changes in some way when they reach high school, for some it could be simple things like starting to wear make-up or join sports teams they can be the happiest years of your life. Unfortunately, this isn't the type of story where I describe how amazing high school is. It's the other kind of story... Maybe introductions are in order. My name is Amber Lea, I have dark hair and eyes I also have dimples. I'm 16 years old and my favourite colour is baby blue..

When I reached high school everything took a turn for the worse, bullying hit me the hardest. I broke, I began cutting, hating every day of my miserable life. I wake up each day and wish I was someone else, Like the type of girl who didn't need anyone who could lift her head high and carry on but, in all honesty have you ever met someone like that?

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Slamming my bedroom door with tear stained cheeks, I collapsed on the floor letting out all the emotions I've been holding back just today. Luckily my parents aren't here, they don't know anything about what I go through.

I have no one, no friends, no siblings. I walk around alone with my twisted thoughts...

I find myself walking over to my bed, underneath there is a box with my greatest demons inside...

My razor blades.

With one last slide of the metal blade and my final tears fall to the floor, I feel The numbing sensation take over me it's pure bliss...

my ears immediately pick up the sound of my bedroom door opening,

"Amber I'm home, are you-?" The voice of my mother comes to a firm stop as she takes in the sight before her.

Well shit.

I rush to put my blades and bloody towel out of her sight, "Mum- I can..I can explain please just-" I stumble I didn't know what to say, I never wanted her to find out her only daughter is a freak.

She slowly walks over to me, her lips tremble and tears start to fall from both our eyes. "Please mum" I whisper, I don't want her to see me in my weak state, she ignores me and reaches for my newly cut wrist.. I flinch as she does this. "Why would..I mean..how-" her questions are interrupted by my father entering, "Darling, is everything okay up here?" My dads voice appears behind my mother.

Well double shit...

In reply to my fathers question she turns around and let out a sob whilst cuddling into his chest. "Oh my- Ben please help her-" she speaks with un-steady breathing. My father looks up at me with a confused look, his eyes travel to the blood falling out my cuts his face looses emotion immediately. "Amber, what is on your wrists?" His voice is cold. It takes me a moment to realises he actually wants an answer, "I..I don't dad-" I stumble on my heavy flow of tears and un-even breathing.

"I need to speak to your mother privately." Again no emotion can be found in his voice but who can blame him. He drags my mum out of the room, her sobs don't end. This is all my fault.

It's been over an hour, i hear quiet mumbling coming from downstairs. I'm just sat here staring at my bedroom wall re-thinking everything, how am I ever gunna be able to face them again?

My bedroom door opens slowly, I feel someone sit next to me. they wait a moment before speaking, "Are you going to tell me why you do it? Or explain why you couldn't tell us." My fathers deep voice ring through my ears. A single tear falls, one of thousands this depressing night. "I don't know what you expect me to say. I do it because I hate myself, I hate how I've let myself become so weak. And how was I supposed to tell you? did you want me to just bring it up at dinner?" I spat back. He sighs heavily, but doesn't speak. I feel like running away, packing everything and going, not like anyone would miss me right? I have no friends, my parents are probably disgusted and ashamed of me so-

"Me and your mother both agree you need help, tomorrow morning you will be going to a help care facility. It's for the best amber" his deep voice broke me out of my thoughts.

My head snaps towards him, "What!? No..I- What!?" I rush back.

"I don't want to do this to you ,but it's the best thing. You need serious help, now get some sleep." he said back calmly then he walked out without another word.