my missing piece

CHAPTER 1

ALEXS POV

The rain puddles were something that made me happy, especially after I had a bad day or something but today, I wasnt feeling it. Got called to the principals house and hear the news that changed my life. Deep down I knew this day would come but not so fast I said all in my head as I walked as fast as my legs could carry me I couldnt wait to be home and have a nice hot cup of tea then hit the sheets.

This all started like every other normal day. my morning in particular started with nothing new, I got up did my usual morning routines, had breakfast, brought in the mail, and kissed my mom goodbye as I prepared to walk to school since I was low on bus tickets and didnt have the money to pay for any. I didnt even get lunch money cause I had stopped work for a bit to care for mom, shes been ill for 3 years now and I dont know if I can still pay her bills and still get thing going in the house. My dad was never around to be honest, I barely saw him as a child and as time went on I never saw him again I didnt know if he left my mom or he was just like you know when you feel something is there but its not. Sometimes I thought maybe it was déjà vu but who cares whether his here or not my mom is my number one priority and I must be here for her, but I guess things have changed.

I was taken to the hospital personally by my principal; he tried to comfort me all the way there, but I couldnt even utter a word after what I had just heard. My mind was chaotic, my heart dropped somewhere in my stomach and I was holding back the tear because I had to be a man, I couldnt cry like a baby I had to just hang in there. Alex whatever happens I and my family will be here for you okay He said as he gave my hand a slight squeeze. I nodded in agreement and wondered how my life came to this; my mum had a seizure and is fight for her life in the ER. I calmly put myself together and paced down the hall, I felt my hand getting cold probably from the fear or the cold weather I had no idea. I could feel my temperature dropping and this feeling of fear I bore wasnt like the ones I carried over the years this was something different it was like I was gasping for life. My head was spinning at this point; my sub consciousness begging my inner being to calm down. Deep down i knew I knew it was the end, it felt like a roller coaster ride that was about to end. I closed my eyes and opened them again this time blurred with tears as I knew I couldnt solve this situation...

All this I remember from two weeks ago and my walk today just reminded me of everything Ive been through in the last 2 weeks the rain puddles burn a part in my heart like they played a vital

Role in my misfortune. The walk to Mr. Jeffersons place was mentally draining deep down I was scared to hear what he had to say concerning my issue. Was he kicking me out of school? Were they sending me to foster care? Was he going to remove me from the baseball team? All this thought burrow through my soul and I kept on think of my next escape plan. I got to his door and rang the doorbell I closed my eyes and took in a whiff of air before waiting for answer. I was greeted in with the smell of roasted chicken and the warm smile of Mrs. Jefferson. Hello Alex, welcome to our home your just in time for dinner. She said in an Australian accent. uhm thank you ma, but Mr. Jefferson said hell like to see me for some issues Im guessing I wont be here for long I said flashing the best smile I could make. Oww never mind, you could still stay for dinner. She said as she gestured to the kitchen. I nodded in agreement as I didnt want to prolong the issue, she was being nice After all plus when was the last time I had a home cooked meal I said as I took my place on one of the dining chairs. Everything was nicely set up for a family of six this was very unusual to me as id never sat at a dinning.

My eyes fell on the table arrangement as I notice two extra platting apart from me and the Mr. and Mrs. Jefferson dishes. I shrugged as I thought maybe he was expecting two other guests but that quickly drained when a feminine voice was yelling down the hall. I got up to check what was going on and to my shock it was Mika, a sophomore student at our school who everyone already knew as notorious. She was always loud and mischievous I couldnt believe she was his daughter I said I made a confused face at her. She looked towards my direction as she flashed me a confused look. Oww its the schools loser and to what pleasure do you owe this visit. She said sarcastically while now grinning. I heard about you and am guessing things arent so well as you always make it seem in school now are, they? Only god knows why youre here, but I hope you leave soon Im just getting toxic vibes and I would really like for it to use the door. I dont know why her words hurt like a knife piercing through my soul but deep down I knew what she said was true, I wore a mask my whole life and I dont think that can ever change. Just then we were interrupted with a loud cough following a warm smile. Alexander welcome Ive seen youve met my daughter and you guys are already on good terms. His emphasis on the last two words made me realize he heard our conversation and wasnt so pleased; he didnt bother to show any emotions apart from happiness. He led us to the dining area where his wife and youngest daughter were already sited. Hi, you look nice you must be Alex, my sister is always talking about you and how youre like very hot and you play baseball. I looked back at Mika with a face of shock; I could see her turn bright red and trying to avoid my gaze. Umm yeah I play baseball but Im not sure about the first statement I said as I scratched the back of my head while giving of an awkward smile. Really you play baseball... I had a cousin who played but mummy said his not with us anymore. My heart immediately skipped a bit and memories of my mum popped in my head. My guts tingle to this sensation. Have a sit Alex I and my family would like to discuss something with you, because you are one of the best students in my school and your condition I will speak to the board to let u finish high school under my care and from today henceforth you will be living under my roof due to adult supervisor. My family will do their best to welcome you into our home. My chest felt suffocated at this point I was happy but scared. My emotions were all mixed into this big hysterical pot. My life right now feels like a movies being plotted the most fiendish person. I looked at Mika as she tossed me an angry look more of like frustration and then walked out of the dining area. Mr. Jefferson umm I really grateful but... no buts Alex I promised your mum before her passing Id care for you he said as he got up to leave. You spoke to my mum before she left; my words barely escaping my mouth. Yes she did apparent through the paramedics that picked her up from home you should sleep here tonight tomorrow we will get your things tomorrow he said keeping a strict face as he walked up the stairs. Come on Alex Ill show you to your room Mrs. Jefferson said as she led me upstairs.

There were 5 doors and my room was the 2 door by the left, it was painted grey with really cool designs by the dresser plus it had a nice few of our towns park from the window. The bathroom already in place and a closet of shirts a jeans Im guessing this was the room of the cousin Mika little sister was talking about there were baseball gears in the closet and a huge poster of Ted Williams by the night table. Youll be staying here okay I hope you get comfortable here and if you need anything Im just a call away okay she said as she held my face with her left hand; I could see she was holding back tears. She walked out and closed the door behind her and I just stood there like a statue not understanding what was going on. I walked to the window all looked at street light that shone little rays of light on the walk ways my mind was still racing as I still felt confused maybe this is all a dream it best to enjoy while it last; I took a quick shower and laid in my bed wearing only my joggers and no shirt. Staring at the ceiling was my new hobby as it let me reflect on myself and my environment. Maybe a run would clear my head. I swiftly wore a grey shirt from the closet with a pair of vans.

I walked down the walkway it was about 12 or so the sky already clothed in a black hoodie. The streetlight guiding my footsteps even though it flickered from time to time. The feeling of being watched kept bugging me and I convinced myself not to care to erase the feeling from my head I played some music from my playlist and put on my ear pods. I was at the verge of breakdown so even if I cried no one really cared; all they ever did was show pity and fake concern. I bottled up my feelings hoping to explode one day but if I died with them will that make a difference? My heart kept pounding not out of fear, the feeling of death just a few inches away made blood rush into my head.

I was happyvery happy is someone finally going to take me out of my misery? I thought to myself. I stopped jogging and walked instead hoping to be stabbed from behind or have my throat slit, with it passing minute my patience grew thinner until I heard footstep approaching me, the adrenaline rushing in and my sight a bit blurred. The calling of death calling my name was beautiful. I turned around slowly hoping to be killed but nothing instead a firm grip on my shirt by a drunken teenager... She could barely walk and I didnt get a good glimpse of her face due to the fact that her hair was all messed up. Ummm are you okay I said as I helped her stand straight I gently but the hair that covered her face behind her ears. I almost shit myself when I figured out who it wasM...Mika what you doing here this late I said almost stammering. What are you now, the police I came to get drinks*hiccups* and happen to meet you here just wanted to be sure it was*hiccups* you know Ive figured its you Ill go*hiccups* back to my friends they are waiting*hiccups* for me. She said about leaving but fell to the floor and started laughing hysterically and saying a bunch of nonsense. I couldnt leave her there so I carried her home in bridal style and placed her on my bed because I had no idea where she slept leaving some pain relief cause she would need it when she woke up and went slept on the couch that was in the room and not the one in the living room to avoid questions from her parents. I took of my shirt and just lay on the couch and prepared for this dream to end and Ill be back to my old like... because deep down I knew I would never deserve any of this