Love is work

Summery

I know this is gonna be hard where did it all begin when my bf of 1 year broke up with me long distance i  was in Italy and he was in Illinois i  went to Italy Beacuse it was my dream to go to my dream collage there and yes my family is there I wanted to explore so much and I did it was amazing but when I left for Italy we were together for 5 moths we have know eachother since my freshman year of high school started dating when I was a senior then I graduated he did too and then summer was great spent it with family friends going to vacation and so much more but when it was time to tell him we're to go to collage I told him we were both hurt I never wanted to leave I really did like him I never wanted to leave but I wanted to chase my dream right? Anyways Italy is know here I'm scared I have a dorm I'm fluent in italian so I'm ready but am I ever gonna be ready I don't know I'm miss every one I really do long distance is hard I have been here for 6 months I miss my bf of 11months  we are going to date for 1 year and I'm happy.I'm going  home for Christmas  break and to see him and everyone else but after I came home we spen pt lots of time 1 week before I went back he told me he can't do long distance I couldn't but I wanted to I live him he told me he lives me never wants  to loose me as a friend but he likes someone else I was sad hurt said i don't know still  what to think  I never wanted to speak to him again I hate him but do I really? Idk what to think any more. Italy is my dream but I want to be close to my family and friends I'm so home sick I have no one here no friends but I do have some family but they live in another part of Italy and it's hard. Getting used to another country it's hated can u still get used to it I don't know. Where did this all being let me tell you.