I wish I could believe you then I’ll be alright
Here I am on the bright and sunny Sunday morning. It is sunny outside but in my mind and heart it is a never ending rain storm. I mean the storm inside my heart could subside all I have to know is that you are being honest. That is all I need.
But now everything you told me
Really don’t apply
To the way I feel inside
Shit but these days if you told me your name is Randal Orton I’ll question you, it would be hard for me to believe. You tried to comfort me and try to tell me that it won’t happen again, but how can I believe that?
Loving you was easy
Once upon a time
In the earlier days in our relationship, you could have ate a fly and I would fall in love with you even more. All you had to do was smile and I love you. Life was nice and easy. I would have believed you if you said mermaids were actually fairies.
But now my suspicions of you
Have multiplied
Now if you told me you were going to shoot a segment of Raw I’ll question it to myself. Hell, everything you seem to do is so suspicion. Like why all of a sudden you go market shopping? Are you really going to see her? I think so.
And it’s all because you
lied
Now all my faith and trust in you is gone. And it is not because you killed my dog or fish or anything. It was over something so simple as a lie. One lie changed everything. Trust me, I know we all lie but not about things like that
I only give you a hard time
‘Cause I can’t go on and pretend like
I haven’t tried to forget this
But I’m much to full of resentment.
“Where are you going?’’ I ask him as he came out of our bedroom well dressed in a nice casual wear. “To the boys party night.’’ He replied rolling his eyes, I can feel his annoyance. “I thought you said you were going to hang with Sheamus?’’ I eyed him down suspiciously not believing one word. But can you blame me? “Yeah, it turned into more of us. Why all these questions Brie?’’ he so smoothly said trying to look like the victim. I let out a dry smile “Okay, have fun. Don’t bring back anything unwanted things to the house Randall.’’ I took a jab at him. He know I only use his full name when I’m mad and over his bullcrap. He went to agree back but stop. “Yeah, bye,’’ he said slamming the door leaving. I sat on the couch and shake my head.
He act like he have no reason why I am always on case, but he fully well know I know. I can’t keep up with all his acts and fakeness.
I don’t even bother to try and erase the memory of him with her getting the freaky side on in the bar. Why would I torture by brain to try and forget all that happen? It won’t work anyway. After all those thought I’ll admit I did try once but he will never know I did.
I’m too full of anger and bitterness now. I would even try to fake a smile at her anymore, I’m just over it. I use to bright happy and cheerful. Now I’m duller than Sandow’s chance of becoming World Heavyweight Champion.
Just can’t seem to get over
the way you hurt me
No matter how hard I try. How much memories of us being happy I go over I just can’t seem to find a place in my heart to forgive you. I even tried drinking with Nikki and the girls to get the way you hurt me out of my system but I can’t.
