idrk lol

just forget me

i really just want to disappear. to peacefully fade away. everyone hates me. even my family. i hate myself. i want to just go away. so no one has to deal with me anymore. i thought it was getting better, but it was actually getting ten times worse. i want to just die. no matter what i do, no one loves me. sure, i have a boyfriend, but that doesnt mean he loves me. hes probably just using me anyway. i want to die and leave. i started this little story so that i could cope and now nothings working. i want to fade. i want everyone to be at peace and for me to just be alone. i promised myself i would take the suffering of everyone else. i found out i have a half sister. i tried contacting her and she told me i was an ungrateful no good brat and that i should never have been born. i didnt update for a while cause it was getting better. i hate myself. everyone else hates me so im just adding another to the list. for all of you that think that suicide is selfish and cowardly, were facing our fear head on while you get bliss. were thinking of everyone else as we tie the noose or pull the trigger. we are giving our spot up so that someone better can fill it. cause who wants a glitched, bugged, broken, virus ridden game? its time for a new one, or the just be done with it, cause it takes up too much space. life is a beautiful lie and death is the harsh truth. no one likes it, but it needs to be spoken. let me be an example to speak your mind and to seek help. i grew up hated and wasting space. i am the broken game, but sometimes, those broken games only have scratches on them. and some people still love them, and try to repair them. some are cracked and some are completely shattered. i hate being here and like they say, if you hate something, dont do it. i hope you all take me as an example to love and cherish that scratched cd. i hope you know that a little bit of love can fix it, i hope you know, that you can save someone. no one wanted to repair me. i was forgotten, broken, and had a milion different bugs and viruses. i am sorry. i love all of you. thanks. <3