watching him go, watching someone else walk out of my life. I felt this guilt as if I made a mistake but I had to do what I had to do I had to realize I mad the right decision. Maybe I am not made for this life maybe I am not made to be loved or give someone my love.
I did not want to face him I couldn't face him but I also could not just sit and feel bad for myself life has to continue hurt or not it has to keep going .
6:00am BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP
"shut up " I yell tiredly
I turn off my alarm clock and slowly sit up on my bed barely being able to keep my eyes open. slowly walkingto the bathroom. It takes about one hour for me to get ready. I am so tired and I really really don't want to go to school.
When I walk into the school I don't even bother to look over at Giovannys locker or even look that direction I just walk straight to my locker not wanting to deal with anything or anyone I just want to get through this day.
I wait for the first bell to ring and head quickly to class . When I walk in I rush quickly to my seat trying to avoid everyone. Giovanny walks in and heads to his seat. I feel this guilt inside me, I feel like it is my falt like I am the one who hurt him. The whole class I have this sadness in me. As I am walking out of class I feel someone tap my shoulder, I turn around to see Melissa "guess it didn't work out with giovanny not a surprise" she says with a smirk. I could feel myself pushing my nails into my palms my body heating up. I try to control my self " damn kinda like all of your relationships" I say with an attitude "what" she says surprises "your just jealous of me Mariana" "I am?" I say with a laugh. All of a sudden I get pulled away buy someone." I feel like that needed to end" Alejandro says, I look up surprised to see him "umm yah maybe your right" I say standing there kinda nervous "by the way I am Alejandro Rosario" he say " yah I know I have heard about you and seen you around" I tell him "and I am Mariana if you didn't know " "Yah I know who you are" he says with a smile "ok I have to go to class now so I guess I will see you around" he says and walks away.
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(Alejandro Rosario)
Alejandro was the new kid who moved from New Jersey last year he is really cute. I have never talked to him but from what I heard he is pretty nice, but he don't really go after girls or cares for a girlfriend he is more focused on soccer and school.He is really good at soccer REALLY good, and let me tell you soccer players are really attractive. He is a popular boy and hangout with the gangster kids and the jock. My next couple classes are pretty boring I have not talked to Carlos or Alex today and Zakrie did not come to school today him and his family went out of town to see some of there family. At lunch I run into Carlos. Carlos:"Hey Mariana" Mariana:"hey" Carlos:"wanna come to lunch with me Alex, Devin ,jabez,and Samantha" Mariana:"sure why not"
