Mia's Coping Journal

Mia Hernandez

5/10/21

Bea came over today with Rosy. She touched my hair and asked me why I would dye it white. I shrugged. When Bea came in and saw Jay, she flipped. She thought he was the father. I haven’t been more embarrassed. She asked where Jazis was, I had to lie.

5/23/21

I’m scared. Coughing up blood has become normal, and Jay never stops growing. He uses my life essence every time he grows, and he grows every day. He must be a teen, seventeen or eighteen. His voice has gotten deeper and the baby fat around his face has disappeared. He spends every day outside.

8/1/21

There was a knock on our door in the middle of the night. When I opened it ten figures came in bringing gifts, and offerings. They praised me for raising one of them I knew who they were and what they came I begged the leader to let him stay, let me keep him until… He said I could, and a day before my death they would take him.

11/1/21

I spent the last three months with Jazis, being conjoined at the hip. When He goes out, I go out. When he eats I eat. When he sleeps I curl around his body and hold him. He shows me his favorite places outside, sings to me his favorite songs. He’s always smiling.

11/11/21

I stayed all day in bed. My limbs ache and I feel unbelievably weak. Jay came in with a sad look on his face and he asked me if I was okay. He called me, “mom, mom, mom!” over and over and the word healed my aching heart.

1/20/22

Mrs. Stanes came over today. She told me soon, and I cried all day into the night, and all night until the sun rose.