𝓼𝓮𝓷𝓼𝓮 𝓸𝓯 𝓫𝓮𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓰𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓷𝓮𝓼𝓼 // 𝓻𝓳𝓫

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Your P.O.V

I'm Y/N Y/L/N and I'm 19 years old from Accrington. I have 2 older brothers; my eldest brother, Dylan, is 23 years old and my second eldest brother is 21 years old. I personally think that it's pretty cool that we have 2 year age gaps. My parents are really busy. I hardly ever see them. After all, they're juggling 2-3 jobs just for us to live. 

As you can already tell, my family isn't wealthy. However, we aren't like this before. My parents used to have stable jobs until my father got fired for some reason. He got really depressed and that's when he started drinking. He used all of his money, and mum's money, to go to clubs and drink his life away. Mum was forced to get another job, part time of course, that way she can still work on the weekdays at her main job. Mum did that just to get us by. My siblings and I helped our dad recover, because we hated seeing him so sad. We eventually found a job for him and told him to sober up; if not for him, then for us, his family. He got to his senses and he's been working ever since. To help with other expenses, he chose to do 2 jobs as well like mum.

Despite of us not being wealthy, I love my family so much. We're all really close and I honestly don't know what I'd do without them. They keep me strong and they inspire me to do great things in life.

Nevertheless, I feel like I somehow don't fit in. They're all alike; they like the same things and they like the same activities. I'm very different. I like ballet and all that classical stuff. They support me, though. But I can't shake the feeling off of me. I feel so out of place even though we all get along.

Thank god my best friend, Reece Bibby, is always here to listen to me and my pathetic problems.

Reece lives in the apartment next door with his family. He's really nice and cool. We basically grew up together, because our families are close friends. I also get along with Reece's best friend, Blake Richardson. Sometimes we all hang out together when Blake sleeps over at Reece's place.

"I don't belong here, Reece. I feel like I belong somewhere else; somewhere far from here." I tell him as we lay next to each other on my bed, staring at the ceiling with glow in the dark stars sticking on it.

"What do you mean?" Reece asks, confusion lingering in his voice.

"I don't know. I just have this gut feeling that's telling me that I'm not supposed to be here." I tell him.

"Not supposed to be here? You mean, your gut feeling is telling you that you don't belong here? With your family?" Reece asks yet again, this time, with a bit of shock.

"Yes and I know it sounds terrible, but it's telling me to do something about it." I sigh.

"Well, do you want to do something about it?" Reece looks at me seriously. I look back at him and just shrug. He sits up and stretches, "I'm going back now. It's late. If you have any updates about what your gut feeling is telling you, you know where I am." He smiles at me and I smile back before he gets up and leaves to go back to his apartment.

I groan in frustration and bury my face on my pillow before eventually falling asleep.

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A/N: hey ho i'm back with a new fanfic

"bUt kIrsTeN wHy dIdNt yOu aNnOuNcE aNyThInG?"

bc it's going to be a flop anyway so there's no point in hyping up a crowd

anyway, I hope you enjoy reading this as much as I love writing it

-not proofread-