I fucking hate awkward interactions, don't you? Well there are many different types, my favourites are those that involve you and your best friend bursting into to tears and bending over laughing afterwards. Then there those that make you cringe for the rest of the day. Me personally just came out of one of those awkward situations, the one where I had to look my boyfriend in his bright blue eyes and tell him we are done as I have just found out the night previously that he has been smooching some other poor girl. Now these situations always normally make me laugh in the long run or some short time after because in my life I've learned to get over things rather quickly, but this one has left me quite barefooted and paralysed as this kind of thing has affected me quite a bit more, strangely, than my mothers death. Maybe it's because I expected it, my mothers death I mean, myabe it's because I was young and I didn't understand, maybe my mothers death did hurt more but it's over now and I just can't remember. It still hurts a lot though, I wish should would come back. But this time I didn't expect for my boyfriend to cheat on me. Fuck, why does life have to be so fucking strange and messed up. Like what the hell did I do to deserve this shit. But like my gran says, God has a plan, doesn't he? Well I don't fucking know about this God my gran prays to but he's let me down far too many times, but if this is the plan he's cut out for me then it's off to a rocky start, maybe me and Caleb just weren't meant to be, sounds so shitty and cheesy but it's all I've got to resolve this situation. Maybe I'll find someone who isn't much of a dick, unlike Caleb, and I'll do just fine.
