am almost going to give up on myb life.......i have disappointed too many people already.......i am the reason why everyone is not happy......if you don't believe me...ask my parents....i am the reason why our money is almost disappearing...I have failed my classes...I lost a lot of things....That's why they don't trust me anymore...My classmates in highschool....my group mates...i am the reason why our group is failing...My friends...I am......a...disgrace...
1 time...i left my lunchbox at school...Whenci told my mom through the phone...she said she was disappointed in me...i took away tjebtrust she gave me....
At school...i wanted to have a lot of friends...but they would call me a wannabee....
I always get bullied by one certain person at our school.
He would always push me,Tease me and also call me a wannabee...
Is this how life treats me???
Or is this a punishment?!
I am sick of it!
I only find my happiness through the ones that i love!!!
BUT EVEN THEY ARE DISGUSTED IN ME!!!
I WANT TO CRY FOR HELP!
I WANNA DIE!!!
I WANT TO FINISH THIS!
BUT I CAN'T!
I DON'T KNOW WHY?!
WHY CAN'T I?!?!?!
IS IT BECAUSE I AM AFRAID OF LEAVING THE ONES THAT I LOVE?!
IF THAT'S THE CASE I STILL WANT TO DIE!!!
You're pribay asking...if i love them why would i wabt to die?
Well... because...for once i don'r want to be selfish....
I want them to be happy.....
Eventhough leaving the world is the only way.....
I LOVE THEM!
BUT THEY ALSO LOVE ME!!!....TO LEAVE!
i know you think i qm 9verreacting but i am the whole reason why everyone is miserable!!!
I want to die...but i still couldn't do it......
Because i have one person by my side...
I don't know what would happen to her/him if i left....
I want to stay.....
To be with him/her...
I want to redo my whole life....
To rethink about my past choises,mistakes and remove all the negatuve personalities in me....
So i can make my parents proud....
Not only themcbur to every one i know....
So what do you think i should do?
