Best of The Worst

Prologue

Casper's POV

"You are the reason why I want to wake up and face another day at school. You are the reason why I believe in happy endings. You are the reason I want to believe in love and actually crave for it. You are the reason why I want to be cliché and cheesy just to see you smile. You are the reason why I would want to conquer the world just to give it to you, because you deserve the whole damn world. Seeing you happy makes me happy. I love you Casper." He spoke to me softly, with me sitting on his lap, his arms clutched around my waist.

My face was laying in the crook of his neck and my hands gripping his hoodie, feeling the rumble and vibrations his chest made whenever he spoke.

"I know Kev, and I love you too." I mumbled breathless as his dipped his head and was sucking my sensitive spot and was grinding me to him. "I-I lov-Ah! Love y-you too. "

He began to nibble and suck harder, pulling me closer and grinding now our growing erection eliciting a long and loud moan from me. When he suddenly stopped, breathing loudly as I am and just tightened his arms around me.

"But we can't baby, we can't. It's wrong." He spoke with his voice was filled with pain yet it was firm, as if to help him resist the desire he feels. "T-This won't work. We c-can't hide for long, someone is bound to find out then everything will go spiraling downwards. I'll lose my parents, my friends, everything Cas. I love you but we can't, I'm sorry."

I just kept quiet to this and let my hands fall limp, removing myself from his lap. Kneeling in front of him looking at him in the eyes, I took his hands in mine and prepared myself for the words I was going to say next.

"Kevlar look, I'm not going to say fuck them all," he chuckled and smiled relaxing when he saw I wasn't upset, but oooh I was but I ain't going to tell him. "but I understand, you're not ready. I get it. Your parents are homophobic assholes, along with your friends. I understand we won't work out and I won't push it, so don't apologise for something that doesn't need an apology. I love you too, and that means I will let you go and live your life the way you supposed to. "

He had tears in his eyes now close to crying, "God, you making me cry Cas. And thats saying a lot." he grumbled rubbing his eyes furiously, like a child.

"I know, I'm good." I retorted playfully, my hands over my heart, bowing a little. He just grunted out and put his hands on my cheeks.

"But thank you Casper, thank you  for understanding, for walking this journey with me, being patient with me and most of all," he said stroking my cheeks lightly with his thumb. "for loving me."

And with that he kissed me slowly, but passionately as if he was trying to memorise how it feels to kiss me again, and honestly I was doing the same. How he manages to move his lips swiftly against mine, nibbling on my bottom lip, his tongue exploring my mouth and sucking on my tongue. Gah, he's driving me nuts!

We slowly parted as we both needed oxygen and damn I have never hated oxygen this much. Kevlar gave me a peck then he hugged me tightly, and I never wanted him to let go.

It hurts, a lot to know we have to go back to what we were before. It hurts to know that his parents aren't accepting of gays. It hurts to know he still values his friends opinions and his reputation. It definitely broke my heart to know that he didn't ask how I feel about this whole thing. I mean I support him and understand him, but still that doesn't mean my feelings and heart wanted it to happen.

I know it's selfish of me to think like this but I can't help it. It really really hurts, but I love him and I would do anything for him to be happy or that would make me feel guilty all the time.

So when he stood up muttering a goodbye and left my room, not once looking back, I just knew it even though I didn't want to admit it, but I knew that it was

Not Meant To Be....

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