The mornings feel so different, no overbearing radio or dogs barking no one to complain about why I'm not up yet, just silence ... So loud and in moments like this id rather be back in the mess of life dealing with the pains of the everyday struggles.
Somehow the pain, love was all worth it now every decision seemed like a wrong one and I can't change it ...just imagine having the world in the palm of your hands and the world being a single person, would you ever let go ... Could you ever let go? no matter how much your world kills you.
Love either breaks you or gives you bliss but either way going through it you pick your poison...the rambling thoughts that keep you up at night when some things not feeling right, the way Your skin shivers and your heart drops knowing you might lose something you love, just feeling Incomplete without that one thing and normally your not the only one that wants it that needs and craves it, so your fighting a losing battle and you know its a roll of the dice the wrong number could mean losing your sanity or life but you can't let it go so you shake those snake eyes with all you have and just hope you don't end up where you began...
Lost and confused but there is no next step no second chance no fairy tale ending, I'm dead inside and out but my heart still aches my soul still craves. So many bad choices what could I have done different, what would make it better so many unanswered questions or maybe I'm just too afraid of the answers.
That it was all my fault from the start every person, every incident there was always something wrong with me something that makes me less. Now blood stains the mirrors because I'm trying to hide from myself and my pillows know the screams and tears I hide from the world, I hide from her.
If i didn't have this silence the truth wouldn't be so clear and if I'm being honest id much rather live the lie of thinking its gonna be okay, thinking this one is different thinking maybe , just maybe this is forever and I won't have to start over... Always having that little bit of hope , in the mix of everything it ends up changing you and by the time you've realized you don't even remember what your like.
What made you happy , now you don't know where or how to find happiness in an abyss of melancholy ... I'm drowning and with the last gasps of air only the memories of being happy goes through my mind suddenly the sounds become clear and the air seems near, but how did it get to this point... lost myself trying to give someone all of me.
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UNFORGETTABLE SILENCE
Poeziefollows the mind of a teen (J) and his challenges with adolescence, love, family and overall his up bringing which ultimately led to who he is. with love his Achilles heel a mind ready to change the world and a soul filled with sweet melodies which...
